cinema, cinema, cinema...

anyone rem tat movie review program by tat name??
used to catch it all the time..
and i still wonder y..
haha~
:P

y the title?
cos ive been to cinemas everywhere to catch tons of movies fro the past wk or so wif dat piggy..
3 to be exact..
n one more to go..
=P
hm..
been sumtime since i had the jeryd movie review section..
tink i gonna haf a short one for this entry..

Jeryd Movie Reviews

Calendar Girls:
nuthing filthy nor pornographic abt this show..
wonder y a fren of mine tink it's sick of me to catch it..
haha~
anyway it's juz a show depicting a story which happened in england..
posing wif nuthing on for the betterment of the county hospital..
nuthing much to say abt this show..
quite draggy n boring tho..
3 thubs out of 5

Van Helsing:
WHOOHOO~
nice n eciting show..
love the creatures and action..
but kinda bored of werewolves being the arch enemy of the vampires..
but interetsing aspect as to how count dracula act mates wif his wives..
haha~
the hero won in the end..
his love died..
the usual action hero storyline..
but aint frankenstein supposed to be stupid??
hm.. sumthing to ponder abt..
4 out 5 thumbs..

Troy:
another epic movie by hollywood..
basically no suspense at all..
juz battles and sex and battles and more sex..
watching brad pitt single handedly killed more than half of the enemies' troops is kinda exagerrating..
but guess tats how the actual story goes..
achilles' heel, now i noe how it came abt..
but the way he died was very cliche..
3 n a half out of 5 thumbs..

oh yah, on a parting note..
notice the new skin yet again..
yup, same culprit..
nice but i prefer the piggy~
haha~
hor darling?
:P

bad luck...

sigh..
i dunno wat is up wif my luck nowadays..
really been down n out..
in every areas man..

monday, got into a serious accident all by myself..
skidded and both bike n rider are injured..
my new bike is in pieces man..
my heart broke together wif it..
the injuries on me is alrite compared to it..
i got 7 abrasions pts..
1 on my right foot, 2 each on my knee, elbow and waist..
to tink i wore long sleeve and long pants den..
sigh~
oh yah, not to mention my ankle and knee are swollen..
limpin pig..
haha~
still recovering frm all the wounds rite now..
sucky life man..

and den my poor piggy is down wif high fever, giddiness and she's vomitting..
was on mc yest and took gd care of her till her temp reaches a safe state..
but den the fever came back today..
but i gotta be in the office to settle my last day there..
immediately rushed down after work to look after her..
i guess a sick person is always a mean person..
so i took watever tantrums and screams frm her in stride..
and juz nurse her abck to health..
her cond improved~
thnx to me or to the med??
i dunno..
but i hope my efforts were well received..
:)

i seriously dun feel the thrill in bloggin anymore..
im juz bloggin to kill time..
guess im juz another person who jumps frm one thing to another..
but not to r/s..
:P
im devoted to whoever im wif..
hehe~
ask my pammy, she'll tell ya..
:)

porky chopy??

like the new skin?
comic strip funny?
dun credit me, give it to the apple of my eye..
pammy...
:D

she gave me a surprise by chnaging the skin herself and during one of our phone calls, she asked me to visit my own site..
was shock to see wat was happening but still, some part of me knew wat was going on already..
she knows most of the passwords for my a/cs, and so do i..
hehe~
=P
but u gotta admit, this is a very cute skin and funny strip as well..
haha~

for the title, porky chopy..
fyi, pork chop is the pet name she gave me..
hence the title..
acting cute sum mite say, i like can liao..
:P

i dunno wats wrong wif me these days..
feel extremely irritable..
very easy flare up..
weather?
stress?
money?
bike?
dunno...
but sorry darling....
:(
ctrling in progress..
hehe~
=P

guess wat guys, i passed my 2A~~
riding a 400cc bike now..
it's totally diff man..
the power n all..
damn shiok..
woohoo~
but gonna ride it for all of 3 mths..
and off i go to tekong..
sigh..
hate ns..
but no choice..

abt the prev post, i shall take my dear's advice..
not gonna reveal wat it is but i guess its the best solution now..
rite dar??
:)

5 mths we had been together..
5 long or 5 short mths?
i dunno..
but it's one of the most tumultous time i've ever had...
ups n downs, ups n downs..
more than a rollecoaster less than the sea..
but still im not letting this precious r/s of ours to go juz bcos of a hurdle in front of us...
cos ive to say, i enjoyed myself more than im sorry or hurtful..
ive never felt so strong for sumone other than u..
u're almost my everything.. but i cun live w/o u...
hehe~
love ya, and lets be strong always thru the times and yrs and decades and ever..
-muacks-
=)

y?

whoa, a hell of a long time..
but i chose not to blog it..
cos i lost the thrill of it and lost the interest in it..
but i juz need to "vomit" watever i wanna say out here..

thing happened..
gd, bad, sad, happy~
everything..
but now, there are things tat happened which made me tink alot..

am i hindering her social life?
am i wrong to be wif her?
it's like all her frens are finding fault in me..
i cun be the nasty me by rebutting my way thru cos she doesnt like me to be mean to them..
heeded her words.. and i try to control my words..
den sumthing happened..
a gd fren i muz say sumwat made some revelations which affects me alot..
she din say it, but the general consentious was that i was in the middle of them..
she cun confide in her cos i would sumwat, sumway noe abt it..
toked to dear abt it, and we both agreed tat she wun reveal anything is she was being asked of..
but she wasnt..
and she din mean for any of this to happen.. she's way hurt down inside but not revealing it..
she herself is going thru a tuff time wif all these happening..
and den now comes my wild tots..
am i hindering her..
if i am, wat am i supposed to do?
break off wif her?
let her haf all the time wif her frens..
but apparently i cun do tat..
i love her too much and i noe she feels the same way too..
y am i an eyesore?
too popular?
having too much of an attitude?
watever it is, i reallly dun understand y frenship n r/s co-exist..
i agree my frenships take a slight back seat when im in a r/s, but one thing i noe..
they are there when i need them..
they dun need me to be there 24/7, all they need to noe is tat i'll be there when they're in need..
like i noe they would..
so i really dunno y this prob would arise for her??
it makes me feel bad...
putting her in a difficult position..
another thing i juz found out..
im not gonna see her or meet up wif her for 6 days in 2 wks time...
a torture for me..
letting her take up a committment during the hols is already a blow to me..
y??
cos im enlisting soon..
n i really wanna spend as much time as possible wif her..
but i guess i'll be spending minimal time instead..
sumthng which i really dread..
sigh..

im really afraid all these events would put a strain to our r/s..
as if NS is not a big enuff hurdle..
but like an aritcle i read a few days ago..

"the quickest way to solve a prob in a r/s is to end it. but the best way to sustain a r/s is to face the prob face to face and solve it. not only would it pull both of u tighter together, it would put a sort of confidence in both of u that nuthing's a prob anymore."

i noe she tinks the same way too..
let's hope all these juz get over soon..

to my frens, thanks alot for being there when i need u guys..
tho i din pay much attention to u guys..
i noe u guys are always there~
frens always bros n sis~
=P

anyways on a side note for my darling..
im gonna try very x100 hard to rectify my current prob..
trust me..
but it aint an easy task..
be patient for the time being..
i swear i'll be better in due time..
i promise..
:)

afraid...

i felt a rojak of feelings for a short moment of a sec or 2...
there was a dash of anxiousness, frightfulness, anger and hope...
all these in a sec..
wat can make me feel so much in such a short time??
read on...

was on my way to the "in-laws" wif my darling...
was sticking on the right most lane of a 2 lane carriageway..
moving straight at a mere speed of 50km/h or so...
approaching a junction, a maroon merc vito was there inching out, trying to turn out frm the minor lane...
while i was like 5m or less frm the junction, he juz move off and was blocking both lanes of the road...
i jammed my both my brakes, horned tat blardy f***er and he din move...
i couldnt hold my brakes any longer as the bike would skid..
so i juz let it go...
and w/o my knowledge, instinctively, i swerved into the oncoming traffic and swerved back into my lane after the bloody van...
wat happened after tat was ugly..
for those hu noes me well would noe wat happened...

during tat brief moment frm the time i released the brake lever to the time i swerved back into the correct direction...
i felt tat rojak...
anxious cos i dunno wat would happen..
frightened cos i dun wnana haf any accident wif my darling behind..
dun wanna hurt her, i dun care if it's me alone..
in fact im more than happy to be compensated...
was damn f***ing angry cos tat van would haf saw me approaching as i wasnt speeding and he would haf to wait for me to go pass the junction b4 moving off...
and i was hoping i could get out of this unharm and unscathe..
for my baby behind...

during tat moment..
my eyes were opened wide..
but all i could see was a patch of maroon and blur images..
of wat i cun tell..
maybe of my darling, my family, my frens and my life..
but in tat moment of facing death, i knew sumthing..
i wasnt prepared to die..
not juz yet..
i wanna live my life wif pam..
i dun juz wanna die and never experienced wat's gonna happen in my later half of my life...
and i was afraid of death..
all those big words of "juz bring it" and "im not scared" are juz bullshit..
i was really really scared...
in fact i readily admitted i wept..
wept cos i knew i was so close to death...
and tats not wat i wanted..

im bringing a totally new view of life now..
i wanna live life to the fullest and treasure everything i haf..
cos i may die now...
after tat close shave...
im still trembling frm tat encounter...
thank whoever up there tat protected me and my darling..
thank you....


now on a lighter note..
i was asked to write abt my third mth wif my dar dar..
so here it goes..
brought her to haf a feast at marche...
we had rosti, pizza, pasta and stingray...
ate till i was bloated...
really couldnt walk..
the same goes for her..
after a walk arnd orchard..
i brought her to telok blangah hills..
sumwhere romantic wif a view to die for..
went down on my knees and gave her the ring..
act went down halfway..
cos i was a lil shy..
hehe~
put it on her and she was grinning profusely..
told her that few words which i meant it for everyhting i am..
tats abt it...
anyway love her alot..
i dunno y..
i juz love her..
now i noe y love cun be explained...
like how i cun explain how my love for her is so strong n burning...
love ya my sweetheart...
=)

love

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR PAMMY~~
and tat is sumthing i'll say to u for the rest of my life..
hehe~
like wat i say to u when i gave u the ring..
i'll keep that promise...
i swear...

PS: sorry for making u so pissed, i din mean it.. really dun...
sorry... =(

ai xin zao chan....

for the non-chinese and pple like jappo, finfin and shaunie,
the title translated would be Breakfast of Love...
-grinz-

din really wake up to a gd morning today..
dunno y, a lil grouchy and moody..
but at least she gave me a morn call..
hearing her voice n chatting wif her is a consolation to the adverse moods in me...
anyway got up n prepared for work..
feel so lethargic although today is the end of wk~

got to work wif nuthing to do and kept on imagning stupid stuff..
playing out funny storylines in my head...
till i received a message frm a particularly special, lovely, caring, pretty, cute, adorable, one-in-a-million piggy~
=P
she asked if i could leave my office for a lil while to meet her at the bus stop near sch..
i asked y and she wanna keep me i suspense by not telling me anything..
so off i went to meet her..
the moment she alighted the bus, she was grinning all the way..
haha~
reminded me of the joker in batman, u noe his permanent grin??
=P

so we rode in to sch and parked my bike..
she told me to open her bag and look for the thing..
once opened i saw a lunch box..
or shld i say breakfast box..
was damn touched~!~!~!~!
cos i was evry hungry and den she woke up early juz to make me this wonderful breakfast...
thnx darling..
=)
anyway i wanted to open it but she said no..
wanted me to eat it in the office, so i obliged..
but gotta clean her bag up frist cos she din place it in a plastic bag and the honey spilled out~
haha~

but in the end i ate it at the bike cos we had too much time to spare..
she made cheese toast and honey sausages for me..
y such a weird combination??
cos tats all she haf at hm..
haha~
but the honey was especially sweeeeeeeeet...
and the toast was especially tasty~~
maybe cos there's a secret ingredient she added tat only i can taste it..
=)
starts wif a L and ends wif an E..
hehe~

this was the first time she cooked for me..
and it was nice..
dun mind eating watever she does, even if it's charred or rotten~
-grinz-
as long as it's done by pammy, pork chop would eat it...
keke~
thnx dear, love ya loads n loads n loads n loads n loads n loads....
=)

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happiest man alive..

yep, im the happiest man alive..
to me that is..
spent the best wkend i can haf wif my darling pammy..
hehe~
everything went as planned..
a lil out but still fine..
=P
anyway juz lemme chronicle the past few days events for ya..
btw, VERY long entry impending..
hehe~

saturday was v-day, n so is the last day of my fyp phase...
wif me and a few others in the lab all saying their gdbyes..
cos we noe we aint gonna see each other no more..
unless on the street or grad ceremony..
anyways was kinda emotional thinking that this is the end of my schooling days...
out into the social world i go..
i guess although they din show it, they were sumwat like me..
tinking of the same thing..
=P

went to meet my darling at OG..
she was shopping wif her mum and nephew..
anyways i had an xtra rose frm sharon kang so tot i mite juz passed it to her mum...
u shld had seen her face..
she had the "unfair, y never give me" look...
haha~
cos i told her she aint receiving any this yr..
keke~

anyway we proceed on to sentosa for our v day date~
=P
all along the way, she was pestering me asking me where we're going..
i juz said dunno..
and she would juz pinch me, hit me while im riding..
finally when she saw harbourfront, she realised where we're heading..
=p
we walked arnd harbourfront trying to find the ferry to sentosa..
juz to realised that it had stopped it's service already..
so we gotta walk all the way back to the interchange to take the shuttle bus into the island itself..
upon reaching there, we took the monorail to M4, Palawan Beach..
hehe~
din tell her wat i planned to do..
but along the way we took tons of self portraits..
even the ladies sitting opp us volunteered to take the pics for us..
hahaha~
anyway brought her to the dolphin lagoon~
but the show wasnt till later..
so we head on down to the underwater world..
a place which i last visit 8 yrs ago..
a hell of a long time man..
anyway we saw gigantic sea turtles, dugongs, cute lil otters and DORY~
haha~
had fun making jokes of the fishes and the pple we noe..
hehe~

on to the dolphin lagoon...
the dolphins were gd..
was enjoying while pitying them at the same time...
imagine being cooped up and doing the same thing over and over again...
sigh~
bought a phototaking session wif the oh so cute lil pinkie dolphins~
managed to touch it..
very weird sensation but cool at the same time~
=P
she was overwhelmed wif touching it..
keke~

anyway we went to catch the sunset after tat..
cuddling and snuggling on the beach..
looking out to the horizon and the setting sun..
wat a romantic image..
hehe~
anyway she turned arnd and asked me to bury her in sand..
which i gladly did..
until she reverse the process and buried me..
hehe~
den i saboed her..
shant reveal wat it is in case she kill me..
but it was fun..
rite my love??
=)

anyway head on down back to my place for pizza hut dinner..
and watched the mtv awards show..
although i couldnt afford to bring her to a posh hotel nor a fancy restaurant for dinner,
we enjoyed ourselves alot wif our dine in one...
cos it's the company we're wif n not the stuff we're eating..
hehe~
anyway i surprised her wif a bouquet of yellow roses, her fav...
but the best part was she couldnt see it..
although i placed it rite in the middle of my bed~
haha~
she even sat beside it..
she liked it alot and she was surprised as i told her im not giving any...
hehe~

now for sunday's entry..
went to metro marina to shop for my business clothes..
the shirts there are dirt cheap..
bought myself an orange and pink shirt and a navy blue pants..
she requested me to wear the orange one today..
which im wearing rite now..
and the best part was tat my supervisor asked me to leave this shirt for dress-down days~
haha~
cos it's too bright and striking..
now u noe y IT personnels are the most boring pple alive...
hehe~
anyway yest after the shopping trip, went to a pasar malam near her place...
let her try the bumper cars for her very first time..
i tink she din really enjoy it..
or maybe she was suffering frm her headache..
but at least she tried..
hehe~

oh yah forget to add tat she gave me sumthing for v-day..
sumthing intimate which i doubt i shld post..
or shld i..
hehe~
anyway a clue would be sumthing i need everyday..
keke~
rite my dear??
-grinz real wide-

vexed, relieved, anticipation...

y the above 3 feelings??
read on and u'll noe..
tat is, if ya still interested in the above 3..
=P

was so damn vexed and frustrated yest man...
had my fyp final presentation yest..
was so damn happy that all of it had finally been over...
gonna move on to the next step..
but den, i gotta face some shit first b4 anything could be settled..
as my topic of proj is sumwat diff, my presentation manner differs as well..
nuthing went wrong during my mid term presentation so i tot it was ok..
but all hell breaks loose..
this cheena lect gotta give me trouble by saying tat "during my 20 yrs at University of Polytechnic, no one presented this way, so are u trying to change the tradition?"...
this was the last straw tat i cld took and of course i kept on shooting him...
in the end i juz left, had enuf of his jibberish cos of his accent...
damnit..
was really damn angry and frustrated..
luckily got my darling to comfort me...
made me smile..
if not i'll be scrooge even though it's not xmas...

feel so relieved now cos i noe where im attached to...
sumwhere near an high pay as well..
-grinz-
another thing to be relieved is tat i passed my practical and waiting for my tp test..
hehe~
finally man..
waited so long for it..
spent alot as well..
sigh..
but part n parcel i guess..
=P

wat am i anticipating?
guess???
of course v-day...
but im in a sort of dillema..
a gd one though..
shall solve it myself..
shldnt post it here...
she can see..
hehe~
but lets hope i'll come up wif it soon..
cos it's only 2 days frm now...

read a particular email...
felt very gd after reading...
it's like i knew i made sumone's day...
and the feeling is great...
it's like a sort of satisfaction that u noe sumone was enjoying ur company...
made me feel really gd..
i guess it made me haf more confidence in myself..
=P

i find that to all who tinks im a very confident person, i dun tink i am...
maybe in particular areas but in most i doubt i am..
i tink ive been putting on a facade..
for myself no less...
to prove to myself that i haf it but i dun...
or do i???
im confusing myself...
i dunno...
gotta go reflect on myself...
monkhood??
haha~
not at the moment...
or maybe not in this lifetime...
-grinz-

flu...

sigh, theres a saying in chinese tat says a wave's juz die down, another's coming up...
trying to say after one problem, another prob arises...
first it was the sars, now it's the bird flu...
when is this gonna end??
or are we going to end?
get my drift?
anyway the world would juz get it over wif..
=P

im highly jealous, highly suspicious person..
dunno y...
lack of self confidence, self esteem??
sigh..
i dunno..
juz tat the feeling would juz arise..
i noe i suck..
im sorry...
i would curb this feeling..
im determined...
this would be my NEW new yr resolution..
wat im gonna do..
man do i suck..
i still hate myself..

this week is a damn busy wk for me...
tuesday, rush my report for my supervisor's viewing pleasure...
wednesday, go for my IAP briefing.. which is a bunch of crap mind u...
thursday, PRAC 3, thrid and final one b4 my tp.. wish me luck...
friday, hendon camp fitness test aka commandoes recruitment act...
for this, u guys can wish tat i fail..
haha~
cos i dun wanna be a commando..
waste my time and my life even..
rem the death??
anyway i'll juz let fate decide...

im hooked on mahjong..
blame her mum..
haha~
everytime im at her place and they're all bored, out comes the mahjong table..
i muz say, ive been picking it up kinda quick..
but still losing..
been playing for 2 consecutive wkends..
the third's on the way...
nuthin is as stressed as playing wif her dad...
i was practically wet wif my cold sweat...
-shakes head-
but not tat bad lah..
din embarass myself..
keke~

tats it for now..
will be back wif more..
if i survive these wks..
ciao~

=)

this is a long overdue entry which i shld had done a few days ago..
anyway here it goes..
=P

time always flies past when u're having the best of times..
2 days ago was our 2nd mth together..
fast eh?
i would say this is the best r/s ive ever been in..
hehe~
anyway the day din go really well..
my plans were dashed..
cos she needs to do her proj at sumone's place..
wasnt particularly happy abt it but got no choice i guess...
picked up a bk at the library and read it till she called..
we went to my place for dinner and found out she was sick..
having a fever..
was so damn worried..
cos her temp went up to 37.6..
wanted to bring her to a doc but she refused..
so i juz did the next best thing, diagnosed by dr soh~
haha~
anyway juz prescribed her wif a couple of panadols and let her haf the bed..
while poor lil me slept on the floor..
luckily after that hr's nap, her temp went down and she was alrite..
was really relieved..
made me worried..
=|

anyway i got her 2 things tat she realkly wanted..
been hearing her bugging me abt it..
so of course she was elated when she saw it..
i kid her by saying i got her a pair of rock shoes as i packaged them in a rock shoe's box..
but she got a surprise when she opened it..
keke~
=)

i need to get my 2a going..
been stagnant for a wk..
better continue it b4 i forget wat im supposed to do~
now all i haf to do is put cash in~
=P

cny...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR EVERYONE~
okok, i noe, it'd been ages since i last blogged..
was damn bz for the past few days..
and i mean loads of events..
shall juz post sum memorable stuff here..
for ur reading pleasure...
=P

weds was chinese new yr eve...
it's also the day where families haf their traditional reunion dinner..
sumthing which i look forward to every yr..
it's the only time when u get to see close relatives and haf a nice dinner together..
and not to mention my grandma's wonderful cooking~
=)
had a great dinner, though the food's the same for the past 20 yrs, it juz taste as gd as it cld be..
-grinz-
after my dinner, it was time to pay my "other" family a visit..
was supposedly to go to her place den on to yishun safra for a bowl..
but when i reached there, the first thing she asked me to do was to help deliver newspapers...
it was act helping her aunt out, so can i say getting paid for it..
keke~
anyways the pt being tat it was the first time ive ever done it..
and i find it to be a tiring job..
imagine 12 blocks..
each wif 12 storeys..
climbing up and down the stairs..
phew..
it's a damn tiring job i tell ya~

first day of new yr, the usual visiting of relatives...
this time round, due to the lack of a car, im riding together wif my dad..
=P
get to show off~
haha~
but cars on the road are like shit tat day man..
guess cos of the holiday mood..
but they absolutely left their driving knowledge and skills at hm..
but as usual, taxi drivers juz gotta behave themselves..
almost got into a fight wif one of them..
damnit..
wat gd luck i haf on the first day of the new lunar yr..

upon her mum's invitation, i went to her place after everything..
wasnt tat awkward as im not the only bf there..
haha~
anyway went out wif her sis and her sis' bf...
din really did much, din really enjoyed much..
but being by her side is more than enuff..
juz hearing her voice and laughter..
=)

she came over my place today..
cos she couldnt go visiting, so i asked her over so tat she cld get some "revenue stream"..
hehe~
a few of my relatives came n went..
and she got enuff to make her smile..
one thing i juz realised..
it's tat this guy who cun sit still, act dun mind staying hm the entire day...
on one condition..
as long as she's by my side..
doing stuff together..
be it tidying the rm up or juz watchiing tv..
a very blissful feeling i muz say..
=)

ns...

NS is juz a pain in the a**...
guess wat, i failed my NAPFA..
all bcos of the run..
cun complete the run fast enuf..
but i was damn shag after going thru all the other stations and the hot schorching sun shining down on me..
sigh~
gotta go train up and retake the damn test again...

went for my medical checkup today...
wanted to be like jappo..
so i added sum illnesses here n there~
haha~
but guess wat, i still got pes A~
am i tat gd??
haha~
the doc was saying only when my knee, which is the prob area, act gives way, den i may be downgraded..
i was tinking, y wait till sumthing act happens den take action??
sadly this is the tinking of sillypore's gov and of course the pple..
the IQ test was so bored i almost fell aslp..
the only exciting part is the tapping of the keyboard~
haha~

my house was empty cept of me, my darling n the dogs..
no dinner or watsoever..
so i became the chef yet again..
=P
this time round, i cooked jap curry...
it's delicious~
hehe~
go ask the person hu ate it..
keke~
after the meal, we had a karaoke session..
haha~
sang all the cheena songs and mltr...
i tink the neighbours were like cursing n swearing at us man..
:D
she has a really nice singing voice, she shld juz dare to sing louder...
rite my dear??

after the nuisance of my taggie is gone, another nuisance appeared in her blog...
wonder y there are pple out there hu can be such a pain in the rear..
i mean look at it, if u dun like it, juz ignore it..
or dun even go look at it..
save all the trouble..
if u're envious and jealous, no point cos nuthing can separate us..
(PS: the "u" used is a descriptive term, not pinpointing on anybody..)
nuisance nuisance go away..
stop buzzing arnd..
-shakes head-

how abt that...

how's this layout for a change..
i personally feel it's great..
comments can be left at the board..
shall post more tonite..
cya~
=)

changes...

hm..
my blog needs a new skin~
looks kinda stale after like more than 9 mths wif the same color scheme n sorts..
look out for it guys..
=)

juz received news tat my Napfa test is on saturday..
im not mentally or physically prepared for it man...
i hope i could get at least a silver for it...
so tat i dun need to enlist 2 mths earlier..
i can do loads in tat 2 mths..
spend it wif my darling...
keke~
tat would be my motivation..
my driving force...
to complete all the stations in the test..
=P

u noe i had this interview at NCS last wk..
din expect much..
cos i dun feel like getting picked for it...
heard it would be a stressful job..
wif all the projs they give...
but fate has a way of playing wif me, i gotta go for my 2nd interview...
hm...
i dunno man...
shld i try to impress them tmr to get the job or juz put myself down???
how how how how how???
sigh..

had an image in my dreams last nite..
i dun like tat image..
and i really hope i dun haf a deja vu on that..
NEVER...
pls....
i'll be gd...
i promise..
=)

bored....

dun u find my blog seems alot more quiet these days??
i find it lacks the type of anticipation..
for me that is...
cos i used to visit my own blog juz to see wat are u guys' comments..
be it gd or bad or lame or nonsense..(toking bout u, jap & tat)
but i gotta give n take i guess..
cos of sum person i gotta make a small sacrifice..
anyway all of u can juz leave ur comments on jap's tagboard n i'll reply there...
hahha~
=P

been jogging alot lately...
find tat i can act run round the sch w/o panting as much as b4..
and i tink i can say my stamina had improved~
cheer wif me finifn~
haha~
guess my 2.4 can make it already...
juz dun wanna go into NS early for the OBESE camp..
=P

her sis treated us to dinner last nite...
cos of all the things we've done for her??
=P
anyway the dinner wasnt tat bad..
@ pastamania, scotts...
joked our way arnd, frm dinner to the walkabt round town...
i tink yest was a reunion day for me..
firstly, met meizhen at far east..
she was my jr n PHS...
den, saw my ex classmate at a bubble tea outlet..
one of the loudspeakers...
hee~
and while walking past orchard mrt, i met the other 3 loud ones...
can call it a day of coincidence??

nuting much to say..
cept to be naggy and remind all of u guys to treasure and cherish wat u haf...
life's short...
touched 20 and 30's in sight...
=)

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guys, shall reinforce wat shaun said, dun let anything ruin wat i haf now..
so im juz letting it go...
cheers~

smelly smelly~~

i smell like a toilet bowl now..
or even worst~~
the ammonium smell is damn pungent, it can juz kill a rat man..
or jap for tat purpose..
haha~
=P

bought the dye on sunday and my dear is here at my place to help me...
she seems professional..
dying every single strand..
and making sure it's balanced thruout..
but there were her amateur times as well..
when it dripped down my face n shirt~~
=P
now waiting for the hr to pass so that i can wash it off to see the effect..
i hope it turns out well..
tink it would..
hehe~
=)

tmr would be my halfway line presentation for my fyp..
wonder if i'll screw up..
hope not...
anyway i guess i can juz tok my way out of anything..
haha~
and next on thurs would be an interview at NCS..
haf no idea where's tat but i tink it's gonna be a formal affair yet again...
the interview would be for my attachment..
hope they pays well~
-grinz-

i dun wan to tink much..
but i love it when im wif her...
and i really wan to carry on, all the way..
but i noe the biggest hurdle is coming my way soon...
a test of love for us...
but for now, i'll cherish watever times i haf wif her...
and treasure her like never b4...
=)

happy bdae to me, happy bdae to me....

yep it's my bdae~
on the 4th...
not sure wat time this would be published after i finished typing~
=)

had a bunch of pals, closer relatives, dad's frens and of course, the VIP(very impt piggy), my dear came down for a bdae BBQ at my place on the 3rd...
the food was great i muz say..
all thnx to my grandma..
master chef~
the company was better...
had our usual digs at each other..
and of course when the clock struck 12, i was gang raped by the guys..
finfin gave me a headlock and tickled me(im xtremely ticklish)..
shaunie was holding down my legs...
dunno wat the heck was mr veins doing cos the lights were off...
but the worst was jappo..
he was wahcking me...
punches here n there..
arse...
but nonetheless a bdae ritual..
haha~
to add salt to wounds, they saw sum stuff they werent supposed to see..
and they insisted on taking evidence of it..
so they stripped me and pinned me down yet again..
den jappo was the paparazzi there taking pics n pics of me half naked on the floor..
imagine getting raped in the safest place, my rm..
haha~
anyway thnx guys for everything..
for those hu came and the presents to those hu din come but gave me a token of tots..
and of course to those who sent me well wishes..
thnx loads..
=)

went out on the 4th as well..
my parents suddenly wanted to buy me clothes for the new yr..
so i dragged pammy along wif me..
i tink she felt a lil awkward thruout the entire trip..
but i guess it's cos its the first time she's out wif them..
my dad as usual, would tell his stories to her..
but it's a gd thing, making her feel a lil mroe comfortable..
=P
bought a pair of jeans and a jacket..
nv expected me to buy a jeans frm there but i did..
cos i really liked it...
got myself a Levi's jacket..
it's damn nice i muz say..
and it's on offer~
hehe~

gonna end this whole entry wif a reminder...
cherish n treasure wat u haf now..
cos on my bdae party, i got everything i needed..
family, frens and my love together wif me...
life's short...
im gonna treasure every moment of it...
thnx all of u for being part of it..
=)

rest in peace my fren...

my classmate, one of the closer ones i haf...
had juz passed away yest due to a motor accident...
it was a sudden news to me..
recieved a sms in the morn wif that shocking news...
din noe if its was a prank or not..
but realised it wasnt when i recived the very same msg 4 times viz 4 diff pple...
devastated was the thing i felt...
immediately i wondered how did it happened..
how serious was the accident??

the entire morn was spent making phonecalls, messaging to inform our classmates...
went down to his place at abt 10+...
realised almost the entire lecture theater was there...
all there to pay their last respects...
waited till the noon for the body to arrive..
hearing wails and screams of relatives who were saddened by the incident made me emotional...
but tat was nuthing till i went into his rm and saw him lying there..
my heart had only one wish, for him to open his eyes..
but i knew tat was impossible..
the tot of how cld it happened kept on came to mind...
he's young, excels in programming and haf a loving gf..
y was he so reckless??
all my classmates were emotional..
we couldnt believe our eyes...
i myself couldnt accept it...

this showed me sumthing..
life is unexpecting..
nuthing's fixed..
he planned to take his class 2a in feb..
but he cun even see the end of jan...
it got me tinking...
it got me wanna treasure and cherish every moment i haf now..
do watvever i need and want to do..
say watever i want to say..
dun waste any precious moment in life..
life's short...

im not gonna ride recklessly anymore..
im not gonna speed on small roads anymore...
to qoute my love one "ride carefully, u're no longer single, dun let ur gf worry abt u".....
im not gonna make her worry abt me..

rest in peace my fren...
u'll always be in my memory...

HAPPY 2004~~~

yep, happy new year to everyone out there~~
it's 2004 already..
2 decades ago, i was born...
2 blardy long decades ago..
can u dig tat???
haha~

anyway this is the time of the yr when everyone will come up wif a list of resolution to do and complete in the coming yr..
BUT.. usually only one or two would be done and the rest are procrastinated...
=P
but im not one of them...
i usually try to do it..
and my last yr's resolution act came thru...
shan't say anything abt the past and lemme come up wif a list of the next yr's resolutions...

here it goes....

jErYd'S 2004 rEsOlUtIoNs...

1) first and foremost, to maintain my current r/s, and make it the best one i've ever had... wif my darling
lying on my shoulder now... keke~

2) to complete my 2A and get my big bike~

3) to maintain all my current frenships wif my frens even though im gonna be in NS soon.. sigh...

this shld be enuff for the coming yr...
dun wanna set myself to high a target rite??
hehe~
=D

anyway juz haf a happy new yr everyone..
and hoping to see all those pals i haven been seeing soon...
the yr ahead is sumthing which i cun forecast...
but all im hoping is that it'll be a gd one...
=)
-grinz-

im juz a jealous guy....

anybody noes the john lennon song, jealous guy??
i tink im like tat..
but it's sumthing i cun help it..
im not the richest guy, im not mr universe neither am i manhunt material..
insecurity would set in..
but guess tats where my ego comes in to leave my esteem up...

but one thing is for sure...
the longer we're together, the lesser this jealousy is...
cos i trust u more wif everyday...
i really hope we wun haf such misunderstanding again...

last nite was the first time i couldnt laff nor smile nor even slp by my own accord...
that 70s show never failed to make me laff..
but they din...
was juz lying on my bed, blanket to my neck...
and juz staring at the tv screen tinking of sumthin else..
or sumone in particular...
i tried to slp by my own..
but i cun..
lethargicness, fatigue took me away...
juz slept wif the tv on..
till morn...

anyway juz wanna say im sorry...
feel damn bad for hurting u...
it pricks in my heart...
but u shld always noe this...
i love u, always........

more to come...

hehe..
yest was our first month anniversary..
kinda fast, a mth juz pass by..
but this mth was the happiest mth i could ever haf...
whenever im wif her, i would smile, laff non stop..
it's like an effect she has on me..
like how i cun get angry wif her..
=P
rite now, my only wish is to haf us like this for many more months, yrs to come...
-grinz-

we din do much yest..
maybe cos we had done quite a bit on xmas itself..
and of course, my wallet is a lil drained..
prepared a bouquet of yellow roses, her fav, and left it in my bike box...
i knew she would always wanna rush to open the box, hence the ploy..
hehe~
she's a person who tends to not show wats she's feeling but i guess she was grinning wif glee in her heart..
=)

it was her fren's bdae tat day, so we gotta attend a bbq at pasir ris park..
nuthing much there except eating and of course the traditional stroll by the beach...
had a nice tok wif her by the breakwater...
feeling the breeze...
listening to the waves..
ahhhhh....
=P
hehe~
a very calming effect..

brought her to changi V for nasi lemak..
and her obsession wif aquas...
haha~
din get to see any at all..
maybe they got raided or wat..
disappoinment..

brought her back to the place we got together..
watched wif her a movie of the same genre...
and coincidentally, i parked my bike at the very same lot and same level i did on that very day a mth ago..
hehe~
fate's on my side i guess...

she's someone i'll cherish n treasure..
wouldnt wanna let her go..
cos wat i see in her is wat i had never seen b4...
and tats the truth from the bottom of my heart...
i swear....
=)

hohoho~

wat xmas it had been..
everything went as planned..
thank god for that..
especially the hard part of getting the tix..
=P

brought her to my house as per the previous entry..
left her in my rm to watch a horror movie, sumthing she dreads but loves to watch...
=P
got down to work in the kitchen...
did the pasta, and the frying of ingredients..
an poured the cream in to make the soup base for the pasta..
n tat was the easy part..
cos next came the baked ham...
haf really no idea how it's gonna turn out...
spread the honey, added sum spice stick(dunno wat it's called)..
and push into the oven for baking..
hm...
the color of it was a lil burnt..
but i guess it tasted alrite?
yes dear??
-grin-

wif a candle lit up, white tablecloth on a piece of wooden foldable table and tada~
our romantic dinner in my room...
=)
better than a restaurant, or so i say....
great dinner, wif great companion and of course great chef~
=P

went to catch sound of colours at lido..
it was packed in town..
wonder wat are they doing there...
dun they noe im coming..
hehe~
it was a nice show...
for the day itself..

we went back to my house for the unwrapping of presents..
cos i told her tat she COULDNT open it b4 xmas..
hehe~
she knew wat i was givin her, tat killed the surprise..
but guess she was touched nonetheless...
im so happy if mine..
hehe~
cos my wallet was torn in all places so she bought me a new one..
it smells nice i muz say...
her scent probably...
=P

this gotta be the best xmas ive ever had...
as long as she likes it, i'll do this anyday, anytime, all my life...
=)

merry xmas to all, and to all a gd day...

everything's prepared..
awaiting her arrival..
on my chariot of course..
hehe~
i hope wat i planned goes smoothly...
especially the food part..
shldnt be much of a prob i guess..
anyway it's the first time im cooking for a gal..
hehe~
*blush*
=P

gotta turn down tons of dates juz for a nite wif juz the 2 of us..
hope u guys understand..
=)

im all set and ready to go to fetch my beloved princess frm castle yishun..
lets hope this day would goes down into the record book as the best xmas of my 20 yrs of life..
keke~

cya guys..
and one last thing..
merry xmas..
enjoy it wif ur loved one..
=)

deep shit...

the level of shit im in now cun be measured in terms man..
it's even deeper than 30,000 leagues...
y is this shit happening to me..
look at the time..
i noe im dumb to stay up so late but it needed me..
but in the end, sigh...
all i hope is tat the morn would be a better time..
let me find "u"...
pls...
god, help me...
santa, all i wan for xmas is that..
ive been a good boy..
yes i was...
-grin-
=)

double-edged sword..

i noe how it feels to be on the end of a double edged sword...
hurting her is like hurting myself..
my heart aches while she's aching as well..
is this love or juz me being a fool..
i tink it's the former..
dun wanna see her in tat state..
but the blame's on me..
me and my mouth wif those dumb stuff...
in the end i myself feels the pain..
really feel damn bad...
apologies on my side..
-smile-

xmas is damn near..
i feel kinda guilty..
din manage to get presents for my closer frens like i did last yr..
but im broke...
forgive me..
i was workign last yr and was in the land of the cheap..
hehe~
=P
anyway juz now tat it's the tot of giving tat counts..
-grin-

she still doesn't noe wat im doing for her..
and tats gd..
dun wanna it to be revealed den the fun is gone...
i still haven got my xmas tree yet though..
juz cun find the perfect size..
guess i gotta wait till next yr den...

i hope the guy above gives me the strength n will to do wat i need to do..
hehe~
"he" noes wat im trying to say..
to the rest, u need not noe..
keke~

an advance merry xmas to all~
juz in case im not blogging in the comign days~
enjoy this wonderful day wif ur loved ones and tell them how u love them..
treasure them like how im cherishing n treasuring her...
-grin-
=)

at home...

yep at home, but not mine...
hehe~
no prizes for guessing it rite..
=P

anyway the reason y i aint in sch now is cos i was the delivery man for the morn..
sent breakfast to her house in the morn..
so i skipped the entire morn in sch n spent it at her place..

was eating at the dining table..
juz the 2 of us..
it made haf the sort of feeling that we were act in OUR house and all married n sorts..
such a blissful and happy feeling..
like how she's feeding me M&Ms now...
hehe~

it really makes me wonder at times y guys juz hate to get married..
for me, i cun wait till the day i wed..
cos i find tat im gonna be the best husband i can be to my wife..
n fulfill my duties of course...
hm..
would she be my wife?
tats far too early to tell..
-grin-

shld i go back to sch n rot?
or shld i juz stay at her place n rot..
i guess i cun choose the latter...
tat leaves me wif no choice..
sigh~

juz wanna leave this note for a gd fren of mine...
to those who dun understand, dun ask and try to understand...
hey, need anything call me, u noe hu u are....
msg me or call me when u read this..
got sumthing impt to tell ya..
and dun worry...
rem our pact?
i'll try to fulfill my end this time round..
=)

tats abt it..
shall type more when i haf more things to say..
especially abt *ahem*
:)

shock, glee, touched...

the above 3 feelings were felt in that particular manner...
cos of sumthing sumone did..
hehe~
=)

act it all started wif me daring her to come on down to sch frm her work place..
wif me doubting her to even tink of tat...
but how was i wrong...
rite after we put down the phone, she came on down to sch...
in the rain, by cab...

she juz gave me a call wif an ultimatum to reach mac or else....
and tat prompted me to run all the way down there..
arousing curious stares frm everyone walking along the aisle..
=P

but upon reaching there, i coldnt see her..
so i tot she was pulling my leg..
but in fact, she was hidden by a pillar..
the sight of her was a shock to me..
followed by a smile slowly revealing on my face..
and a warm fuzzy feeling felt by my heart...
really made my lousy, wet day brighten up...
juz by looking into that slit eyes of hers...
=)

i've always wondered how shaunie would feel when charis always surprises him...
n finally i'd knew it...
nuthing but happiness n of course love..
hehe~
=)

'tis the season to be jolly....

yep, xmas is arnd the corner...
anybody excited? jubilated? anticipated?
me personally, love this time of the yr..
cos this is the time when no matter wat, everyone would feel jolly folly for no gd reason..
or maybe juz me..
but i haf tons of reasons to be jolly folly and all cuddly~
haha~

maybe it's juz me but i love to hand out presents during xmas..
it juz gives me a sense of satisfaction i guess...
even tho i dun receive anything in return...
=)
i got a weird theory to y im so absorbed wif xmas...
cos my bdae happens to fall within the 12 days of xmas..
though it's the 2nd last day..
it still does..
hehe~
=P

but as age catches up wif me, i find that my xmas presents frm my family differs alot frm before..
for eg i use to receive gifts but i haf now are juz monetary token..
not tat im complaining tho but it sumhow doesnt feels rite..
but anyway it's juz the tot tat counts rite?
dun mind wat i receive as long as the tot's there..

i want to get a miniature xmas tree to put in my rm..
i missed the process of decorating one...
of putting presents below the tree..
of anticipating xmas eve to open the presents..
or do i juz missed childhood...
sigh..
it all seems so long ago..

sumthing's been bugging me..
i tink my *ahem* noes...
the big two-O...
i dun wanna grow old..
growing old sux...
i dun get to be as carefree and innocent as b4...
i dun get to be troublefree as b4..
and as they say, time passes way faster when ur age doesnt consist of the "teen" anymore...
but it's part n parcel of growing up..
i cun be like peter pan..
he doesnt exists in the first place...

xmas, anybody care to haf a party?
-grin-

snow snow fall on me...

having to be in sch everyday frm 830-1700 is gonna kill me man..
anyway tat would give me more chances to update this blog rite?
like now~
=)

saturday was a brilliant day for me~
though i gotta go back to sch till 1,
but sumone made it one hell of a better day..
hor?
=)
the sound of her voice make the whole day worth while for me to look forward to..
hehe~
no matter how dreadful it's gonna be..
-grin-

sunday was a fun day~
haha~
went to snow city..
though not the actual plan but it's still fun nonetheless...
wanted to ice skate at jurong but there was some event held there..
so changed plans to snow city...
im gonna sound like a mountain turtle but tat was the first time i saw snow~
really really fun..
though it's artificial snow, enjoyed it nonetheless..
cos of the person im wif..
hehe~
anyway it wasnt as fantastic as i expected..
quite a small place...
but it was cold..
for my standards..
-7 degrees...
my whole face went numb..
couldnt speak properly..
=X

anyway i gotta go back to slacking in class..
and another half an hr more to go off~
=)

long long time...

it's been a hell of a long time since i last blog..
i guess there're a few things which happened..
so here it goes in chronological order..
=)

the wk following my last post was a slacker's wk..
din do much cept working..
till the wkend tat is..
went on down to kukup in western coast of malaysia..
it's a kelong style place where we stayed in a house on stilits above water..
nice relaxing scene where both sun rise n sun set can be viewed~
oh not to mention the amt of mudskipper dwelling underneath~
haha~
and i put my hands on firecrackers/fireworks for the frist time..
all we can play in sillypore is juz sparklers..
but there, we got to shoot those fireworks in the sky..
nice display of light~
really lit up the darkness of the nite..
=)

after tat trip came my FYP..
sigh~
tho the topic is interesting, i dread the time i got to be in sch...
but guess i gotta get used to it if not i'll be blacklisted among those latecomers..
=P

i guess i took the right path n made the right choice..
really took quite some time to express it but eventually i did..
being together wif u brings me immense joy..
and nuthing else does cept u...
all i hope is tat we'll enjoy it n i'll definately cherish wat we haf now...
not me to take sumone for granted...
=P
i would give everything in return for sumthing so simple...
a four letter word...
give ya a clue..
start wif "L"...
=)

mind-boggling ramblings...

"i missed u yet i dun want to say it out...
im trying to avoid watever misunderstandings and misinterpretations...
the image of u is always on my mind...
especially when u dun call nor leave me a sweet, though forwarded msg..
when i was weak, tinking of giving up, ur very image came to mind..
n tat was the only source of energy tat i had to carry on...
this really showed me wat u meant to me..
im quite appalled by this shocking revelation, but i kinda accepted it wif open arms..
wats pulling me back, my heart asked?
my brain answered it wif answers of logical reference and rebutted every single pt..
but am i a brain motivated person or juz a foolish emotional vagabond...
i haf no idea for this case..
whoever i gonna be ain't surfacing now for me to be it...
time muz tell me wat to do..
for im lost in my own tots and imagination.."

u guys muz be wondering wat the heck was tat..
juz some ramblings in my mind..
adding some vivid imagination n of course scripted tales here n there n voila~
this rambling occur..
u guys decide whether it's fiction or not..
=)

officially started work today as....................
a trishaw rider~
haha~
but dun worry, im emplyed by STB..
so i guess it kinda a dignified trishaw rider..
was damn shag mid way thru it..
cos my motor couldnt start..
so in came the manual legs of mine..
almost couldnt finish the entrie journey..
dehydrated, fingers numb...
but i guess i gotta work hard for the money..
gd pay i muz say...
=P

enuff ramblings frm this maniac, nonsensical person...
oh, to leave a last note..
I WANT MY 2 MONTHS HOLS~~
=)

4 lame arse...

yep, the 4 lame arses met today for a movie n dinner..
watched the movie b4 though..
but juz went again juz to go wif the guys..
been a very long time since i last went out wif them..
so i guess a small sacrifice isn't much to pay..
=)

watched "ong bak"..
a very nice action packed movie wif a shallow storyline..
typical story but wif actions of awe..
everybody went "ooh" n "ah" in the movie..

went for a dinner after the movie..
head on down to pastamania where jappo met up wif weili..
had a couple of jokes there n a bk review was on the way wif me, fin and shaunie..
haha~
all u readers out there are surprised tat the 3 of us reads, dun u?
=P
dun blame ya..

anyway the highlight of the evening is yet to come..
tat will be the after dinner drink at marche..
din wanna break my promise of alcoholism, i din drink, while the rest ordered a jug of draught..
(wondered if they were asked to check their age, haha)
i went to get my food..
and when i was back, the first thing was tat shaunie drank 2 sips of the draught and cun carry on..
i went HUH~
cos the infamous shaunie is gd at drinking..
or so among us..
haha~
anyway it brought back bitter memories of not so distant past..
read his blog for more info..
anyway he couldnt carry on n he really looked as though he would juz puke watever pasta he had earlier~
tat was scary..
haha~
anyway he din and we head down to our respective homes 'cept jappo...
-grin-

i tink im destined to remain a bachelor...
act im not complaining though..
im having all the freedom i could haf..
spending all the cash i haf on myself...
and my "wife" of course...
but god played a prank when he made me..
he gave me too much love...
so much so tat i need to give it away..
n now im in a situation where there aint anyone to give it to..
hm....
maybe he wanna me store it all up n give the entire to the one im supposed to..
but here i am, begging him to pls send tat person to me..
cos i really really cun hold it within me for long..
gonna convulse soon..

anyway tink im gonna start on some personal projs..
if not im gonna slack the entire hols..
no one to go holiday wif..
=(
sigh..

long time gone...

been a very long time since i last added anything here..
missing?
hospitalised cos "sumone" did sumthing?
nopes~
neither..
juz din haf anything to write and been up to the brim wif studies..
anyway here goes nuthing..

exams wk...
everybody cramming up every last details into tat puny squishy pink thing they call brains...
me included..
but come to tink of it..
this is gonna be my last time ever gonna sit for a paper..
shld i cherish it n do my very best??
close frens of mine would noe my ans..
heck care~
haha~
can pass, tats all i ask..

u noe sumthing...
after tat saga had ended..
u noe, TAT thingy...
i've realised sumthing..
my frens are always there to back me up..
it shows tat i can count on them when i need them..
either tat, or they're juz seeking entertainment..
but both ways are sumthing gd to ponder abt..

im tinking of a holiday..
no where far..
juz sumwhere outside of stuffy sillypore..
im not sure if anyon out there feels the same way..
but i like to go to places during hols..
as in not get cope up in sillypore..
maybe it's juz me cos i can see pple like jappo slp n eat the entire hols away~
haha!!
anybody wanna go away wif me?
a short holiday stint in msia?
an offer of holidaying wif the man~
haha~

wats my blog entry like if there aint an entry abt my love life~
hahaha~
latest update for the busybodies..
stagnant..
yeah, tats the word to describe my love life...
no one in mind to go for...
guess i'll juz let it stay this way...
till THE ONE, not neo =P , comes arnd...

adios cucaracha~

penny for my tot...

hm..
anyway did u guys read my tag board..
theres this "mysterious" person by the name of littleboy dissing me off..
hm..
wonder who can it be..
but me being me, wun take anything lying down, shall launch a rebuttal..
=P

firstly, who are u in all this to judge who i am?
since u urself said tat im in no position to judge her, wat gave u the right to judge me?

secondly, u muz be sumone related to her or even her, herself to display such angst..
so y dun u juz reveal urself so tat we dun need to tok anonymously..
if u haf the guts tat is..
since u already threathened me to watch my back..

thirdly, i've never laid full responsibility on her for the failure of out r/s..
if u could actually read english, i was toking abt how she pushed my limit AFTER the r/s..
guess ur brain doesnt haf the capacity to act interpret it the rite way...
shant blame u here, sum pple like u juz dun haf the brains...

lastly, this is my blog..
i write watever i feel..
it's ur choice to read it..
not happy abt it?
juz dun read..
im not forcing ya...

oh yah, im not ashame to say my petrol is being paid by my parents...
they willingly did it..
other than them, i dun rem asking anybody else cept' myself paying for it...
so get ur bloody facts rite b4 launching any attacks..

to end all these, the person who shld grow up shld really be u...
go process...
u need the time to do it...

hatred....

hate is a four letter i wun use easily...
rather use words like "dislike", "no gd affliation for" or even "dun like"...
but now i really gotta use this word...
i HATE her...

y cun she grow up for once??
n im supposed to be the childish one..
cun she juz let go??
STILL minding over small matters and finidng faults..
really make me find her damn irritable...

she hated me first..
i dun wanna hate her..
so i tried my best to be a neutral person..
but she gotta push the limit n make me hate her...
dun understand her mindset..
it's like she's testing my limit..
but today was a fine example of almost to there...
one more time she pisses me off, im gonna go over n give her a tight slap..
tat was for today..
tmr would start afresh wif limit at zero..
lets see how far can she push me...
im no mr nice guy den..
tats all i cna say abt tat..

find tat the song She Hates Me by Puddle of Mudd really depicts this situation..
but in this case, i hate her too..
damnit..
y muz it be this way..
i tried my best to turn it for the better but she gotta be the bitch in this whole thing n make it this way..
sigh~
watever it is, i tried my best..
my conscience is clear...

on a lighter note...
went to Sepang during the wkends..
to catch the MotoGP..
for the ignorant it's the motorcycle grand prix..
=)
it was damn thrilling..
listning to the engine roar and screech..
but too bad, no crashes...
haha~
took tons of pics..
would try to post it up when im free..
=P

tats it for now..
juz wanna hope she dun play wif my fire..
cos she would get burnt real bad...

washing machine..

a fren of mine changed her nick to "washing machine"..
it made me tink...
life's like a washing machine..
n im feeling like a washing machine myself..
lemme explain the above metaphors...

life, is juz like a washing machine..
u haf everything thrown into it..
u haf plain colored clothes and patterned ones..
u haf pants, shorts and even skirts..
u haf briefs, bra and even panties..
now can u see my pt?
=P
juz wanna state that life's like tat..
u haf all sorts of variations of things..
may it be happy or sad, dead or alive..
all these are part of life..
which kinda suck i admit..
but acceptance i muz..
=)

now lets go on to wat im feeling...
u noe how a washing machine roll and tumble..
mixing the clothes in it arnd..
im feeling like tat now..
but replace the clothes to be emotions n feelings...
i dunno wat im feeling nor missing now..
i tink i noe wat im feeling, but i doubt it in the next moment..
i feel tat im missing sumone, but am i missing her or juz the feeling of being wif her??
feel tat im living a dillema..
neither here nor there...
and so the machine roll n tumble...
and my innards follow...

y am i such a complicated person?
or izzit tat im tinking too much...
hm....

the light had shone...

alrite, i guess the light had shone on me..
at least tats wat i tink..
maybe it was a choice of despair or maybe tats the rite path..
but whichever it is..
it had happened..
let's juz hope it's the right one..
but it's definately not the same decision i made the previous time round..
it made me tink as though im experimenting for future references..
but i dun like tat thought...
damn...

anyway below is a poem by Wislawa Szymborska called Love at First Sight...
it's an easily understood yet meaningful n deep...
it's hard for me to describe wat i feel abt it..
but it's everything gd..

the line "Fate has been playing with them. Not quite yet ready to change into destiny, "
bring abt wat i wrote in my previous post...
fate is playing wif me..
maybe it's juz tat the time aint rite for it to change into destiny..
my destiny..
would there be a day where it actually does, i dunno..
but at least i noe it would..
not for me, at least for others...
cos i see it but i dun realise it...

anyway here goes the poem for appreciation...
=)


Love at First Sight
by Wislawa Szymborska

They both thought
that a sudden feeling had united them
This certainty is beautiful,
Even more beautiful than uncertainty.

They thought they didn't know each other,
nothing had ever happened between them,
These streets, these stairs, this corridors,
Where they could have met so long ago?

I would like to ask them,
if they can remember -
perhaps in a revolving door
face to face one day?
A "sorry" in the crowd?
"Wrong number" on the 'phone?
- but I know the answer.
No, they don't remember.

How surprised they would be
For such a long time already
Fate has been playing with them.

Not quite yet ready
to change into destiny,
which brings them nearer and yet further,
cutting their path
and stifling a laugh,
escaping ever further;
There were sings, indications,
undecipherable, what does in matter.
Three years ago, perhaps
or even last Tuesday,
this leaf flying
from one shoulder to another?
Something lost and gathered.
Who knows, perhaps a ball already
in the bushes, in childhood?

There were handles, door bells,
where, on the trace of a hand,
another hand was placed;
suitcases next to one another in the
left luggage.
And maybe one night the same dream
forgotten on walking;

But every beginning
is only a continuation
and the book of fate is
always open in the middle.

Translation from Polish by Roman Gren

sense of humor...

life haf a weird sense of humor..
its lackey, fate, would be the one doing the practical jokes on us...
i really find tat my life is playing a cruel practical joke on me...
and fate is the key "person" in this joke...

sumthing left, sumthing came...
the thing which came is like the thing tat left...
it made me go "DEJA VU~"

i feel so familiar in this situation..
the same unknowingness...
the same emotions start to flood in...
the same thing im gonna do would happen..
but wait..
did i do the rite thing b4??
and shld i implement it again this time round??
dillema sets in...

im an emotionally driven person..
everybody noes tat..
im a dumb person cos i use my heart more than my brain to tink...
i dunno y but i use my instincts...
shld i follow my instinct or my brain??
dillema sets in again...

the determined n headstrong part of me isnt doing me any gd...
but it aint doing any harm as well...
i wanna hold on yet i wanna let go...
im self contradicting...
but tats juz jeryd...

let the light shine on me...
pls.....
=)

poetry in motion..

this post would be a post of poems i had composed but never act published..
=)

anyway guys, thnx for the concern..
im fine..
dun worry..



Hurt, in words
Hurting her wasn't intentional.
Hurting me was the consequence.
Like a double blow,
I'm hurt like she is so.
If time is reversed,
this wouldn't happen.
For hurting an angel like her,
is as good as executing God Himself,
a cardinal sin.


Meaning of love
Love is too small a word for too big an emotion.
Like how the petite her, is my entire world.
Life would never be complete without her presence.
As to love isn't love without her.
So how do a small her occupy a big world?
That's just the magic of love, true love.


The way of right
Lost in this maze,
an unknowing place.
Wondering where to head next.
On one end, the divine loneliness,
and the other, a route of uncertainty.
Which would i choose,
i've yet to decide.
Maybe fate this time,
would be on my side.
If a guiding light would just fall on me,
so that i can see,
the right path i need to go,
so that i'll get over being low.

All out of Love

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish i could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know


(chorus)
I'm all out of love, i'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am i without you
I can't be too late to say i was so wrong


I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?


And what would you say if i called on you now
And said that i can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or i'll be gone, i'll be gone


(chorus)
Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
(repeat chorus)

karma...

i haf this lecturer, raymond, who recently told me tat accidents usually occur in the 12th mth of driving/riding...
and his cursed words actually came true..
i got into an accident yest in my 11 and a half mths of riding..
this bloody car banged my rear..
i flew but luckily wif minimal injuries...

this maybe caused by karma..
cos i gotta admit on this..
im not a perfect rider on the road..
i swerve, yes...
i speed, yes...
mayb this is a warning to me not to the above mentioned..
=P

but tinking of the repairs i need to do and the $$$ i need to fork out gives me a headache...
sigh~~

wanna hear some happier news??
hehe~
our one mth anniversary is coming..
and i've got sumthing for celebrating impt occasions..
or shld i say meaningful days, like "Pamper TY day"..
-wink-
=)

anyway events had been planned..
and hope evrything goes smoothly for tat day..
hehe~

time juz passed fast when ya wif ur loved one and enjoying urself..
it sure did for me..
guess it's the same for everyone out there..
so treasure the time u haf wif them..
never let them go..
=)

days of my life...

hey there all my fan-si~~
sorry for the absent in this blog...
but really too bz to update it..
hehe~
and u guys shld noe wat im bz wif..
-grin real widely-

anyway life's been gd...
a major 180 turn frm a few mths back..
hehe~
lets hope it stays this way..

anyway went go karting in jb last wkend...
it was really fun and adrenaline rushed into my head while driving...
reminds me of schumacher on the track..
=P
anyway not going back to that track again as the owner of the place is damn NIAO~
like shaunie..
haha~
we juz knocked into each other and were asked to compensate for it..
totally not viable compensation.
juz warn u guys not to go there...

im on cloud 9, but never would i forget my frens~
so guys if theres anything u guys need frm me, pls approach me..
cos im not gonna shun u guys cos im attached~
=)

i cun climb for nuts anymore..
feel as if i lost all my strength n skills..
but i dun haf them in the first place..
=D

i recently found out tat im an easy jealous person..
need to try to curb this bad factor..
anybody got any ideas??
can help?
hehe~
juz feel free to email me thru the link on the bottom left hand side of the screen..
-grin-

okie..
gtg now..
lecturer coming over..
ciaoz for now~
=)

declaration...

this is a declaration of love to the only love i haf...

I LOVE YOU, ty...

there's no one else who can occupy my heart like u do..
this comes from the bottom of my heart and no where else..
trust me on this..
=)

i wanna be with u for the rest of my life..
will u want me tat way?
=P

bliss...

i've finally realised how to spell bliss...
n i do not mean literally...
bliss had showered on me recently..
and im cherishing n treasuring every single moment of this...

got hitched..
gd news?
bad news?
up to u to decide..
to me it's the best thing tat could happen after getting my wife..
=)

anyway yets was national day..
in other words the nation's birthday..
brought her to Tanjong Rhu wif the rest of my biking buds to haf a picnic there while waiting for the fireworks show..
find tat this yr's ceremony lasted very short..
and the fireworks display aint fascinating anymore..
maybe im not longer tat young kid awing in amazement anymore..
but hugging her while watching it makes up for everything..
=P

i've always complained to fin and shaunie tat they were too mushy and asking them to stop it..
but now i noe y they do it..
cos im doing the exact same thing~
haha~
=P
it's sum sort of attraction tat u cun stop..

so to all my admirers, fans and lovers out there...
im sorry...
this amazing metrosexual SNAG aint available anymore..
=)
cya all~

cough, cough, sniffles, sniffles...

im sick~
yes u read it rite, the ever strong jerk is sick~
=P
been having an irritating throat, blocked nose wif a "river" flowing down...
dry coughs wif sneezes in btw...
sigh..
it sux being sick..

the annual adventure camp is tmr..
thru the wkend..
wif my current condition..
be glad tat i dun contract malaria in the mosquito infested environment in UBin..
=P

nuting happened during the wk..
been mistaken by my new classmates dat im actually together wif this "gal" in my class..
u guys shld noe who..
i went -_-"
haha~
but tat's the case when u're me~
hahaha~

nuting much more to say..
gonna go now..
would post more pics up when i haf the time..
=P
ciao~

sorry...

the owner of this blog apologises for the long term of absenteeism..
=)

anyway nuting much happened to me..
tats y the lack of posts..
hehe~
=P

anyway wat im gonna relate in the post is not in chronological order...
cun really rem wat came first~
haha~
here it goes...

the desaru trip first i guess...
it was wat i would call a laughing trip..
we were laughing thruout even though while riding..
haha~
made jokes abt each other, doing stunts..
and the beach there was relieving..
really brought away all my stress and troubles..
i was there juz to enjoy myself and let loose~
the waves were huge enuff to engulf me~
but it was really really fun, especially burying one of the guys there wif sand..
sculpting breasts, a big tummy, a dick and a pussy together..
haha~
imagine wat a weird creature it had been~
=P

now comes the void for the wk..
nuting happened during the wk at all...
so im fast forwarding to friday..
=P

i made it a pt to inform almost all the guys to come climbing on fri
and stay for dinner cos our mentor, juz call him da boss,
is leaving for NS on tuesday..
but kinda disappointed some of them din turn up..
the turnout otherwise wasnt tat bad~
16 of us..
ranging frm yr1, all the way to old birds~
had a resounding farewell dinner for him...
kinda sad to see one by one all our snrs/mentors leaving..
first was santoso den came da boss...
next up would be the gay..
but who would miss him??
haha~
kidding...

the recce trip in ubin on sat wasnt as wat i expected..
cos im still not sure wat's going on..
wat are the events going on or who's gonna be in charge??
nvm, leaving it all to the yr 2...
dun understand y suggestions cun be made when loopholes are there in the original ones..

went to sing wif my biker frens at nite..
had tons of fun there as well..
teasings galore..
all of us left there w/o a voice..
haha~
sang for close to 5 hrs~
imagine tat~
=P

tats abt it..
told ya nuting much rite??
and tat, im not in the hosp wif SARS~
=P
ciaoz~

missing??

yah i noe..
been missing for ages..
not tat i dun want to blog..
it's tat i cun~
my windows crashed on me..
:~~
cun even load..
sad rite~
finally it's up n running but it;s kinda slow..
wonder y??

anyway the wk had been a busy one for me..
visited pammy and toked to her for a while..
glad to see her all well..
hope her foot recover fast~
tat was one bad accident..
get well babe~

had dinner wif the churchies(was jap calls them)..
occasion?
jess' farewell dinner part deux~
a quiet affair this time round..
most of them are either aint free or in NS..
ate some overpriced normal food at newton food centre..
but had a few gd laffs though~
=)

was at zouk last nite for its mambo nite~
free entry and drinks are at 1-for-1..
so y not??
=P
went wif the bikers but ended up wif 2 diff grps of frens..
saw cecilia, irene, eugene n alvin there..
(fyi, they're my pals frm the time i worked at cine)
met up wif rolaine there as well..
was on a dance rampage..
finished dancing wif my biker frens and this HOT chick,
i carried on dancing wif the cine gang..
till late in the nite..
was damn crowded as well...
full of wat we call "the poly crowd"..
but it was the feast for the eyes~
hehe~
left b4 the place closes..
classes start at 8 today..
but as usual, i couldnt get up..
missed the first lab this morn...
it was the "on-off" lab..
guess i wouldnt miss much~
=)

call me sceptical, call me weird..
but rem i once said i judge a future gf by the feelings which tingles in me?
yah..
felt it recently..
but im not sure..
im always not sure..
tats wat suck~
and im sceptical nowadays..
darent take tat major step into the wooing stage..
afraid of history repeating itself..
i dunno wat to do..
juz gotta take it a step at a time..
=
tats it for now..
will see me here again on mon perhaps..
after my desaru trip~
ciaoz~
=)

dillema...

been ages since i last blogged...
so sorry my loyal fans~
=P

anyway nuting much been happening for the past wk..
caught 2 new movies~
hehe~
T3 n 2 Fast 2 Furious..
here's a short review of both movies wif NO spoilers..
=P
T3: it's a movie basically packed wif action, action n more action..
a storyline which had been repeated since the first ever Terminator movie..
director, sumthing new pls~~ =P
but kristana locken rulz~
hehe~
overall 2 and a half jerkds out of 5..
2F2F: okok.. if ya like cars, cars, cars and babes.. this is the movie to watch..
other than tat, the storyline is as gd as T3~
not much of it~~
i like suki~
the gal who's driving the pink S2000..
drools~~~
but it's the usual gd guys nab bad guys and sex sex sex~
=P
give it 3 and a half jerkds for suki n the cars~!
=)

nuting much happened other than tat dillema im in..
shant tok abt it..
too personal..
but one day when it's finally solved, and when im feeling comfortable enuff,
u guys would noe it..
=)
ciao for now~

judgement call...

wat's ur take on homosexuality??
on lesbians and butches...
on gays and faggots...
wat so u tink of them??

ok for me, i despise them to the core..
i really dun approve nor condone it..
call me conservative, close-minded, old fashioned...
i dun care...
but tats wat i tink..
seriously tink tat those hu turn into the "dark" side are really going against god's rules in playing this game of life..
dun u tink so?
anyway enuff of the rambling of this crap..

can i ask another question?
ever tot tat u got over sumone but realised after tat u hadnt..
okok..
here it goes..

passed S a present cos her bdae juz passed..
as a fren i guess a present for her bdae aint anything...
later on we continued to msg each other..
den later we on to the topic of bf..
asked her if she had any..
and she said no...
so i said y not?
and she continued to say dat she fall for gers instead..
den came in my hatred for homos..
i was so damn hurt..
(and i dunno y i felt tat way..)
i pressed on to ask her y she turned tat way...
she answered tons of stuff..
anyway the prob lies here...
y would i feel so hurt, as if it's the end of the world, if i had gotten over her??
i told her i was disappointed n hurt..
and in the end she told me it was all juz a joke..
she wasnt..
but it's too late..
i actually pour tons of stuff unto her..
i told her she hurt me loads..
and i start to ponder..
do i still like her?
i haf no idea..
haf i gotten over her?
i dunno..

but one thing's for sure...
i care for her alot..
im confused...

sch sux~

ever been strange in a familiar environment??
ironic sentence but it's wat happened...
first day at sch..
it wasnt my very first, first day at NYP..
ya noe wat i mean..
but it's really weird..

i entered the classroom, which i had entered umpteenth time..
everything looks and feels strange...
furniture and fixtures were in the same position..
faces were diff though..
totally new faces..
cun recognise them..
even the lecturer..
never seen him before..
asked him whether i was in the rite class n yes i was..
settled down n muttered, "this gonna be a loooooooong semester"..
and i believed it would be..
after surveying the entire class, 3/4 of them, i dun even noe~
the other quarter are a bunch of hi-bye frens~
if not pple i dun really like..
sigh~
see my plight??
none of my classmates nor pple i can get along wif were wif me..
neither were my kilq(my version of clique) who were in an entire diff stream as me..
=gonna forge new relationships wif new pple..
this is one time i missed the degenerates of a bunch of classmates of mine..
this is the one time i really missed those noisy bunch of kliq i haf...
this is gonna be an entire lonely and miserably long semester...
=(

thnx for all u guys' concern over the accident..
im alrite n im fine..
no major injuries and all..
still walking on this green earth~
not buried six feet under...
=P
thnx loads~
appreciate ur concerns~
=)

missed me??

it's 3 am on a saturday morn..
but to me, i'll call it a late late friday nite..
=)

anyway was spurned to write sumthing after wat shaunie said..
so here it goes, a chronicle of wat happened in the past few days..
be prepared to get shocked by stuff im gonna say..
:P

weds went alrite i guess..
but was really really demoralised..
find tat i cun boulder anymore..
feel like quitting climbing altogether..
arms totally no strength to sustain myself on the wall..
lack of training or simply too weak..
tink it's the latter..
sigh~
and to tink tat im gonna get enlisted in a yr's time..
how to serve my nation like this~~
haha~
went to gnc after our climb...
i haf a damn urge to get Nitro-Tech..
a protein supplement to enhance lean mass n strength..
2 things i really need now..
hm..
shld i??
im scrawny....
i noe..
=(

thurs was a day of mixed emotions for me..
woke up real late cos apparently all my frens aint free for me~
ate my brunch and got going on my bike..
did some minor adjustments and gave "her" a thorough wash and polish..
but the sky gotta break open in the middle of it all..
continued at the nearby block's void deck..
i've never seen "her" as shiny as i did tat day..
a sense of satisfaction set in..
=)
went out for a movie wif my biker frens..
caught Charlie Angels..
a piece of advise is tat buy the vcd or d/l it..
it aint worth watching..
unless ya into soft porn..
all i see is the 3 lead ladies almost naked bodies..
and of course their bodacious arse~
went on my home after the movie..
on the expressway, there i saw another biker fren of mine..
asked him to go for supper n he agreed..
things changed frm here onwards..
a wonderful day going down hill...
after the supper at Chomp Chomp..
we went our separate ways..
as it was after a heavy downpour..
the road was extremely wet..
at a right turn before Bowen Sec..
i skidded and lost control of my bike..
my left fork lamp was smashed..
crash bar was dented and not to forget tat my side mirror was gone as well..
as for me, i rolled on the ground and found myself few feet away frm the bike..
was obviously in a state of shock..
din realise i was on the road until after a min of realisation..
took off my helmet and guess wat...
left it in the middle of the road.. -_-"
but it was a freaking shock to me..
i wasnt prepared..
injuries are minor..
but i tink my knee is concussed..
it aches and it actually cun be bend at times..
managed to crawl home on the bike..
she's a tough bitch~

friday, today was an average day..
got my wife repaired..
amt coming up to 20 bucks..
not bad~
but the engine and the other parts is not damaged in any other way..
so i guess it's ok..
went to play pool in the nite wif my frens..
i suck at this as well..
but i choose to blame the cue..
it's damn freaking lousy..
imagine when u hit the cue ball and u hear a "tang" sound..
hollow~~
=anyway went on down to changi village for supper..
tats went i had a deja vu..
an almost repetition of yesterday's accident..
but luckily i managed to control the bike this time round..
my heart and every innards i haf was practically in my mouth..
was too shock to even go past 80km/h after tat..
at changi, saw a few REALLY pretty trans~
they look like a genuine female..
but prettier..
technology had indeed advance..
it can make a guy to be a lady, a prettier one at tat as well~
=P

tats abt it for the recap..
kinda long n naggy but i need to pour everything out..
juz to keep track of my personal ride..
=)

=)

my day was short~
mainly cos i woke up real late~
hehe~
not tat late but late enough..
and i would haf slept later if not for gdl who called me..
to confirm our date later~
=P

anyway went for a karaoke session wif the gals in the noon..
gdl, pea and princess went..
i still cun accept the fact tat i was tricked by the princey..
we chatted on fri on icq and i tried to ask her when she's gonna come back to sg..
but silly n naive old me din noe she was already in sg and chatting wif me underneath the same sky..
anyway it was a pleasant surprise on sunday when i received her phone call to tell me she's back..
lets get back to the karaoke..
i booked the room at cuppage plaza..
and we sang n sang~
for 3 whole hrs straight..
very fun~
wif sniggering and laffters thruout the session..
but not enuff for me though..
i want more~~

gotta accompanied pea for abt 2 hrs cos she's meeting her frens later..
din wanna go home so early, tats y i agreed..
anyway we were crapping the whole time thru~
haha~
but we managed to do some incisive window shoppings~
=)
the incentive of it all is........
i get to meet her pretty korean babe of a fren~
hehe~
okok..
she's not TAT pretty but pretty nonetheless..
and u would noe they're gd frens when u hear them speak..
they speak in the exact same bimbotic tone~
hahaha~
anway this goes to pea, dun push me like im some merchandise tat cun be sold~
although i noe i cun be sold but not a merchandise~
haha~
but she seems interested..
or is she??
haha~

sch's starting soon and i haf YET to receive my time table..
wat efficient, ISO9000 approved, sch i haf..
=P
they suck~
anyway not tat anxious to get back to sch..
not tat fun anyway...
but way more fun than work..
work sux~
period.

anyway ciao~
note tat ive been updating everyday..
im trying to keep this up~
juz for the millions, *inhale the anticipating breath*, and millions of my fans~
haha~

........

was feeling rotten yest..
hence tat rotten post..
can juz ignore it..

working today was bored as bored can be~
forgot to bring my book..
den gotta stone thruout the day~
sigh~
'cept for the monkeyS~~

anyway went out wif dong n hif gf at nite..
had dinner at pastamania cos i was really craving for their cabonara~
it rulez~
wif tons n tons of cheese of course~
im cheesy u noe?
=)

was feeling damn awkward thruout the nite..
wif the 2 of them..
juz gotta be the light bulb i guess~
=P

played pool at paradigm and they were having a mini competition wif 2 grps of pple..
quite heated i guess..
but one sided...
they won by a landslide~
it was so formal tat there were even a judge there..
and i tot it was juz a friendly competition..
maybe over territory?
haha~

penned down a poem while stoning away at work today..
not too good i muz say..
but juz some feelings and a dash of sudden inspiration~
=)


love sweet love~

Love, oh sweet love...
The feeling i've been longing for,
slips further & further away.
Just can't get a grip on its core.

Gazing out of the store,
couples galore.
Hugging & kissing,
with all the loving they could have.

How i wish i'm one of them,
without giving a damn!
Expressing love, oh sweet love,
to one another,
in their own sugar-filled world.