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was feeling rotten yest..
hence tat rotten post..
can juz ignore it..

working today was bored as bored can be~
forgot to bring my book..
den gotta stone thruout the day~
sigh~
'cept for the monkeyS~~

anyway went out wif dong n hif gf at nite..
had dinner at pastamania cos i was really craving for their cabonara~
it rulez~
wif tons n tons of cheese of course~
im cheesy u noe?
=)

was feeling damn awkward thruout the nite..
wif the 2 of them..
juz gotta be the light bulb i guess~
=P

played pool at paradigm and they were having a mini competition wif 2 grps of pple..
quite heated i guess..
but one sided...
they won by a landslide~
it was so formal tat there were even a judge there..
and i tot it was juz a friendly competition..
maybe over territory?
haha~

penned down a poem while stoning away at work today..
not too good i muz say..
but juz some feelings and a dash of sudden inspiration~
=)


love sweet love~

Love, oh sweet love...
The feeling i've been longing for,
slips further & further away.
Just can't get a grip on its core.

Gazing out of the store,
couples galore.
Hugging & kissing,
with all the loving they could have.

How i wish i'm one of them,
without giving a damn!
Expressing love, oh sweet love,
to one another,
in their own sugar-filled world.

sigh....

can't everything be solved by putting $$$ aside??
y muz everything be interwined wif $$$....
im tinking, y muz my youth be spent worrying abt $$$..
i shld be out there enjoying my youth and do watever i can now rather than later...
but apparently there are pple in my life whom doesnt share this logic..

im a happy go lucky person..
i wanna be the bird in the sky and do watever i can now..
cos i noe when i reach the age of 20..
there is nuting i can do to stop the hands of time frm moving all the way to retirement age..
and there would be a long list of things i shld haf done n didnt..
dun mention abt later, but now~
even now i haf a long list of things tat shld had been done but haf not been achieved in my early teens..

life juz stinks...
i hate working yet i need to work to keep my dream...
juz hope tat i can cope wif my third yr work wif working..
tis would be my main worry for the coming yr...

i want a simple life..
wif no worries and headaches..
y muz i haf all of these instead~
wat i dun wan..

quoting remy zero, somebody save me...
quoting creed, can u take me higher...(so tat i can be free)
quoting jeryd, life juz suck~

to all those out there who's maligning me of being a gay..
seriously, i dun give a shit~
say watever u guys wish..
im kinda sick of it..
sick of everything..
when one day i give up on hope..
u dun haf to call me anymore..
juz forget my number...
or simply erase it frm ur hp..

due to popular demand..

been asked by many frens to update my blog more often...
so here it goes~
=)

finally after 2 days of postponement my competition got under way...
had the preliminaries in the morn..
did pretty well on a really tuff route..
it's said to be on par wif routes for the experts..
overall got into a 10th place out of 26th..
quite respectable i muz say~
haha~
got into the semis which is in the noon...
the route is easier BUT it's in a leading format..
which is i gotta clip in the rope as i ascend up the wall...
was reaching out wif my rite hand for the next tile when i din even noe y i slipped n fell..
wat freaking elements made me slipped is still unexplanable to me..
i was questioning myself y it happened and was clutching my hair in frustration..
the guys there can tell u how dumb i looked den..
=P
but in the end still cun get into the finals..
guess gotta try harder next time..
but would they be a next time?
=)

after the comp, went to meet up wif gdl, fin n pea..
went shopping arnd n ate at a hainanese chicken rice stall..
their roasted chicken was gd~
one of the best i've ever tried..
it's on the top floor of far east plaza and it's beside jansen's hair salon..
=P
gdl bought this unique n unusual bracelet..
blue stones binded together wif leather strap...
she went home n was told by her bro tat it can be bought at a pasar malam for $5~
haha~
poor thing~
but i seriously find it nice..
=)

need to do some shopping myself..
and finding new clothes targets..
the 2 shirts i aimed had been deleted frm my check list..
one is unavailable, the other bought by shaunie..
sigh~
poor me~
any sympathisers out there for me??
hehe~

im starting to believe there's actually someone up there in the clear blue sky..
did my customary prayers b4 i climbed today..
did an extra one in isolation for clear weather...
and it actually came true..
it was dark up there b4 the prayer n my nap..
when i woke up it was cleared..
climbing was resumed..
hm...
coincidence or miracle?
u decide..
while i figure it out myself as well..
=)

lack of jeez..

this is a post of feelings and not abt wat happened to me..
juz a fore warning..
=)

find tat i haf a lack of target, or lack of sumthing to look forward to..
im like living everyday wif the mentality tat i juz haf to pull thru yet another day...
not tinking of anything..
carefree...
dunno wats wrong wif me..
care to share??

wat do i need to do to get a target...
ambitions wise, i haf no freaking idea..
wat im studying now is not wat im gonna work as..
tats for sure..
i suck in it~
tats the prob..
wat am i suppose to do?
future, set aside..
wat abt the present..
other than the burden of maintening a bike n paying for it,
i haf nuting else to tink abt..
im starting to feel shallow...

solution, get a gf to kill time, to occupy the void??
is that possible??
i haf no freaking idea..
one after another my heart shatters tat i darent go near this topic anymore..
maybe i shouldnt be the gd guy....
gd guy dies first wif nuting fulfilling ever happens for him..
while the bad guy gets the gers, lives longer and is usually richer..
so y call the bad guy bad when he's so much better off..
i haf no inkling of whoever set these terms...

im full of angst now..
not to mention sadness as well..
all these are targeted at me of course..
i dunno wats wrong wif me...
things arent wat it seems..
im going no where wif this post..
juz take it wif a pinch of salt..
treat it as crap..
i juz need to verbal vomit it all out~

me, me, me...

oh yah did i ever told u guys the trip was fun..
it was fun~
hehe~
damn~
while u guys are suffering in the scorching heat in singapore,
i was enjoyin the chill @ 21 degrees on the hill~
=)
okok enuff of bragging~
but it really was cool n fun~
the way down was bendy~~
hehe~
we went down leaning our bikes so low dat the foot pegs were brushing on the road..
like some MotoGP race...
can check out the pics here~

got my hair cut and dyed~
hehe~
=P
the color is sumwat subtle..
copperish, ashish..
sumthing like tat~
see it when u see me~
hehe~

ok guys, whining session coming up~
=P

ever want to tink of sumone b4 u sleep at nite?
i do..
and everynite i would tink of a blank space b4 i slp..
this void must be filled..
but when? who?
apparently i dunno..
hope i do but i dun..
y dun i get a chance to be on the bachelor~
haha~
den i'll haf like 25 gers to choose frm~
make out wif them, throw them aside~
haha~
kidding..
but i dun mind being on some program like those..
matchmaking shows, the bachelor, watever~
wat an experience it'll be..
hehe~
but then again, it may juz be scripted and not real at all~
sumtimes reality juz suck~
=P

GSS, great spending spree..

been shopping for the past 2 days...
my 2 off days~
hehe~
=P

went out wif pea and gdl yest..
after thoroughly servicing my bike for the trip..
and after buying the armored jacket i need..
which cost 400 by the way..
=)
met them at far east where pea was buying a maternity dress~
haha~
juz kidding..
it's juz tat the dress fluff up in a wat tat it looks like one..
even gdl agreed upon it..
the gers carried on shopping wif me lurking behind, giving some precious $0.02 worth of tots..
=P
went to zara which is where i did MY shopping..
hehe~
got myself this suggestive looking tee which actually look good~
haha~
of course it gotta look good den i'll buy rite?
=P
anyway shall take a pic of it sumtime soon..
saw another shirt which cos 32 bucks...
wondering whether i shld get tat or the one at tangs studio..
pondering pondering pondering..

today was a boring day~
the meeting in the morn was alrite..
things got settled, at least..

met sumone who tingled my feelings inside..
i've always haf one single critical requrement in finding a gal,
she muz make me haf the tingling sensation inside..
and sy did it..
the moment i set my eyes on her today, i couldnt take it off her..
i dunno but she exudes this charm which i cun comprehend..
im turning into an idiot here but hu cares~
=P
anyway lets hope this one works..
=)

after the dreaded rain stopped in the evening, i went on downtown to search for mr veins..
he was at the library..
juz nice, need to return and borrow new bks~
=P
anyway we shopped as well..
went into the harley davidson shop at taka..
got my dad a tee for fathers day..
he wouldnt accept the chaco chong sandals i brought back for him saying it's too ex..
so juz got him sumthing cheaper i guess...
hope he liked it..
it's been awhile since i toked to mr veins and lots of things happened and changed..
he's progressing well and i hope he can get to the decision he needs soon..
u shld not wat i mean mr veins~
=)

tmr's the trip..
cun wait for it..
dunno wat to expect..
juz hope everything would turn up fine~
and guys, juz pray tat u wun pay me a visit when im in a coffin eh??
=)
cya guys in 3 days..
asta la vista baby~
i'll be back~

it's been a hard day's work...

guess wat~
i've juz finished a 11 days non-stop working schedule..
and guess wat again..
im not gonna work till sunday~
WOOHOO~~
going up to Fraser's hill (sumwhere further than KL) on friday..
for 3 whole days~
cun wait for that well deserved break..

gonna service my bike tmr..
b4 the trip of cos~
if not sumthing goes wrong and im dead~
=P
gonna get a pair of gd gloves if they're suitable..
and not to forget a jacket for the trip..
let's hope i haf enuff $$..
=)

that sweet lil bitch did it again..
she came by ori yest and passed me some home baked pineapple tarts..
they were gd i muz say..
cept tat it could be less flaky..
=P
thnx bitch~
i owe ya one..
oh btw, i din eat anything till i got home after ur tarts..
hehe~
:P

last saturday was a hectic day for me..
it was my grandma and my lil cousin's bdae..
i had another official launch meeting for my cruiser grp on tat very same day..
oh not to forget i gotta work~
how am i suppose to juggle it all and fit it into 24 hrs??
here it goes..
i asked the "magnanimous" calvin to let me off early tat day at 5..
den i went on down to upper pierce reservoir for the first part of the launch..
left them when they were heading for dinner and went home to celebrate their bdaes..
hung arnd, chat wif my uncles and their kids...
rushed on down to pitstop, a biker pub at beach road to meet them for the 2nd part of the launch..
luckily they were still there...
anyway we went on to gelang patah, which is in jb for supper..
and i muz say their food is the best~
it's cheap and better than food in sg~
drools~~
we rode on up to kota tinggi..
which is abt an hr and a half ride away..
it was fun..
going thru roads where u cun see...
serious..
when u look back, all u see it pitch black darkness~
and of cos i was secretly hoping not to see any white figure floating arnd..
=P
i was the last man hence the impt responsibility of rounding the riders up~
tats y i can only see darkness..
=)

when i read shaunie's new blog...
im so envious of him..
he gets to shop..
-sniff-
i wanna buy clothes~~
lemme outta my cage~~
=P

oh oh oh oh~~
u guys wun expect this but guess wat...
i finally pierced a second hole in my left ear~~
hehe~
here's a shot of it..
=)


how abt it??
hehe~

im back, n better than ever...

im back...
everything's settled in life..
the bad patch is over..
now is the financial part..
sigh~
too many things to buy, too little money~
haha~
=)

anyway my darling bitch came and find me today..
she was such a dear~
bought me a pack of famous amos cookies..
was so touched..
almost cried~
=P
anyway it's so sweet of u, bitch~
=)
thnx~
appreciate it..

spent abt 2 hrs chatting wif her in the shop..
time passed real fast den..
i guess time always flies when u're wif gd company...

work sux..
my khakis all not working these few days..
MC, retrenched..
no one to tok to..
but it;s still way better than campers..
hehe~

nuting much happened in the past week for me to post...
hence the break..
but went for my class' chalet last wk..
had a fun time..
one of the few times the class were together and doing things as a whole..
glad tat im in this class..
can see bonds being build btw some of us..
=)
my damsel was there as well..
and as usual this knight in shining armor was there to save her~
hehe~
u guys shld not hu im toking abt...

results were out yest...
not bad i find..
at least an A...
but it was expected..
cos anything less than tat i might be disappointed..
=P
juz glad tat i passed everything..
including that dreaded c++...

i find tat i haf no target in life..
i haf no idea wat im gonna do when im out of the army..
im like taking a step at a time n not planning..
it aint gd..
but im trying..
trying to draw a blueprint out for my life..

i've always wanted to get married by the age of 27..
it seems an eternity for me to get married and it seems like tomorrow tat im gonna turn 27..
get the idea?
im not even attached now..
no gers in mind as well..
how am i suppose to reach tat target??
near impossible...
sigh~

anyway met up wif redsky at cine after work juz now..
she was working as stage manager at the stage at cine for the street fest..
the band which played juz now was not bad..
the singer was trying real hard to sound like axl rose and jon bon jovi combined..
he achieved it somehow..
like the gay version of those 2 though..
the band sung covers of songs by deep purple, guns n roses and BON JOVI~~
=)
guitarist was superb~
ask redsky, she'll noe~
=P

frens, gers, do i look like im a playboy??
y do everybody say i look like one??
and mostly this statement are from gals..
do i haf that playboy look??
no...
haha~
but pls leave some comments and shed some light..
im damn curious~
fyi, im a devoted person to the ger i love..
so gers, feel free to approach me..
im no playboy..
:)