poetry in motion..

this post would be a post of poems i had composed but never act published..
=)

anyway guys, thnx for the concern..
im fine..
dun worry..



Hurt, in words
Hurting her wasn't intentional.
Hurting me was the consequence.
Like a double blow,
I'm hurt like she is so.
If time is reversed,
this wouldn't happen.
For hurting an angel like her,
is as good as executing God Himself,
a cardinal sin.


Meaning of love
Love is too small a word for too big an emotion.
Like how the petite her, is my entire world.
Life would never be complete without her presence.
As to love isn't love without her.
So how do a small her occupy a big world?
That's just the magic of love, true love.


The way of right
Lost in this maze,
an unknowing place.
Wondering where to head next.
On one end, the divine loneliness,
and the other, a route of uncertainty.
Which would i choose,
i've yet to decide.
Maybe fate this time,
would be on my side.
If a guiding light would just fall on me,
so that i can see,
the right path i need to go,
so that i'll get over being low.

All out of Love

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish i could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know


(chorus)
I'm all out of love, i'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am i without you
I can't be too late to say i was so wrong


I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?


And what would you say if i called on you now
And said that i can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or i'll be gone, i'll be gone


(chorus)
Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
(repeat chorus)

karma...

i haf this lecturer, raymond, who recently told me tat accidents usually occur in the 12th mth of driving/riding...
and his cursed words actually came true..
i got into an accident yest in my 11 and a half mths of riding..
this bloody car banged my rear..
i flew but luckily wif minimal injuries...

this maybe caused by karma..
cos i gotta admit on this..
im not a perfect rider on the road..
i swerve, yes...
i speed, yes...
mayb this is a warning to me not to the above mentioned..
=P

but tinking of the repairs i need to do and the $$$ i need to fork out gives me a headache...
sigh~~

wanna hear some happier news??
hehe~
our one mth anniversary is coming..
and i've got sumthing for celebrating impt occasions..
or shld i say meaningful days, like "Pamper TY day"..
-wink-
=)

anyway events had been planned..
and hope evrything goes smoothly for tat day..
hehe~

time juz passed fast when ya wif ur loved one and enjoying urself..
it sure did for me..
guess it's the same for everyone out there..
so treasure the time u haf wif them..
never let them go..
=)

days of my life...

hey there all my fan-si~~
sorry for the absent in this blog...
but really too bz to update it..
hehe~
and u guys shld noe wat im bz wif..
-grin real widely-

anyway life's been gd...
a major 180 turn frm a few mths back..
hehe~
lets hope it stays this way..

anyway went go karting in jb last wkend...
it was really fun and adrenaline rushed into my head while driving...
reminds me of schumacher on the track..
=P
anyway not going back to that track again as the owner of the place is damn NIAO~
like shaunie..
haha~
we juz knocked into each other and were asked to compensate for it..
totally not viable compensation.
juz warn u guys not to go there...

im on cloud 9, but never would i forget my frens~
so guys if theres anything u guys need frm me, pls approach me..
cos im not gonna shun u guys cos im attached~
=)

i cun climb for nuts anymore..
feel as if i lost all my strength n skills..
but i dun haf them in the first place..
=D

i recently found out tat im an easy jealous person..
need to try to curb this bad factor..
anybody got any ideas??
can help?
hehe~
juz feel free to email me thru the link on the bottom left hand side of the screen..
-grin-

okie..
gtg now..
lecturer coming over..
ciaoz for now~
=)

declaration...

this is a declaration of love to the only love i haf...

I LOVE YOU, ty...

there's no one else who can occupy my heart like u do..
this comes from the bottom of my heart and no where else..
trust me on this..
=)

i wanna be with u for the rest of my life..
will u want me tat way?
=P

bliss...

i've finally realised how to spell bliss...
n i do not mean literally...
bliss had showered on me recently..
and im cherishing n treasuring every single moment of this...

got hitched..
gd news?
bad news?
up to u to decide..
to me it's the best thing tat could happen after getting my wife..
=)

anyway yets was national day..
in other words the nation's birthday..
brought her to Tanjong Rhu wif the rest of my biking buds to haf a picnic there while waiting for the fireworks show..
find tat this yr's ceremony lasted very short..
and the fireworks display aint fascinating anymore..
maybe im not longer tat young kid awing in amazement anymore..
but hugging her while watching it makes up for everything..
=P

i've always complained to fin and shaunie tat they were too mushy and asking them to stop it..
but now i noe y they do it..
cos im doing the exact same thing~
haha~
=P
it's sum sort of attraction tat u cun stop..

so to all my admirers, fans and lovers out there...
im sorry...
this amazing metrosexual SNAG aint available anymore..
=)
cya all~

cough, cough, sniffles, sniffles...

im sick~
yes u read it rite, the ever strong jerk is sick~
=P
been having an irritating throat, blocked nose wif a "river" flowing down...
dry coughs wif sneezes in btw...
sigh..
it sux being sick..

the annual adventure camp is tmr..
thru the wkend..
wif my current condition..
be glad tat i dun contract malaria in the mosquito infested environment in UBin..
=P

nuting happened during the wk..
been mistaken by my new classmates dat im actually together wif this "gal" in my class..
u guys shld noe who..
i went -_-"
haha~
but tat's the case when u're me~
hahaha~

nuting much more to say..
gonna go now..
would post more pics up when i haf the time..
=P
ciao~

sorry...

the owner of this blog apologises for the long term of absenteeism..
=)

anyway nuting much happened to me..
tats y the lack of posts..
hehe~
=P

anyway wat im gonna relate in the post is not in chronological order...
cun really rem wat came first~
haha~
here it goes...

the desaru trip first i guess...
it was wat i would call a laughing trip..
we were laughing thruout even though while riding..
haha~
made jokes abt each other, doing stunts..
and the beach there was relieving..
really brought away all my stress and troubles..
i was there juz to enjoy myself and let loose~
the waves were huge enuff to engulf me~
but it was really really fun, especially burying one of the guys there wif sand..
sculpting breasts, a big tummy, a dick and a pussy together..
haha~
imagine wat a weird creature it had been~
=P

now comes the void for the wk..
nuting happened during the wk at all...
so im fast forwarding to friday..
=P

i made it a pt to inform almost all the guys to come climbing on fri
and stay for dinner cos our mentor, juz call him da boss,
is leaving for NS on tuesday..
but kinda disappointed some of them din turn up..
the turnout otherwise wasnt tat bad~
16 of us..
ranging frm yr1, all the way to old birds~
had a resounding farewell dinner for him...
kinda sad to see one by one all our snrs/mentors leaving..
first was santoso den came da boss...
next up would be the gay..
but who would miss him??
haha~
kidding...

the recce trip in ubin on sat wasnt as wat i expected..
cos im still not sure wat's going on..
wat are the events going on or who's gonna be in charge??
nvm, leaving it all to the yr 2...
dun understand y suggestions cun be made when loopholes are there in the original ones..

went to sing wif my biker frens at nite..
had tons of fun there as well..
teasings galore..
all of us left there w/o a voice..
haha~
sang for close to 5 hrs~
imagine tat~
=P

tats abt it..
told ya nuting much rite??
and tat, im not in the hosp wif SARS~
=P
ciaoz~

missing??

yah i noe..
been missing for ages..
not tat i dun want to blog..
it's tat i cun~
my windows crashed on me..
:~~
cun even load..
sad rite~
finally it's up n running but it;s kinda slow..
wonder y??

anyway the wk had been a busy one for me..
visited pammy and toked to her for a while..
glad to see her all well..
hope her foot recover fast~
tat was one bad accident..
get well babe~

had dinner wif the churchies(was jap calls them)..
occasion?
jess' farewell dinner part deux~
a quiet affair this time round..
most of them are either aint free or in NS..
ate some overpriced normal food at newton food centre..
but had a few gd laffs though~
=)

was at zouk last nite for its mambo nite~
free entry and drinks are at 1-for-1..
so y not??
=P
went wif the bikers but ended up wif 2 diff grps of frens..
saw cecilia, irene, eugene n alvin there..
(fyi, they're my pals frm the time i worked at cine)
met up wif rolaine there as well..
was on a dance rampage..
finished dancing wif my biker frens and this HOT chick,
i carried on dancing wif the cine gang..
till late in the nite..
was damn crowded as well...
full of wat we call "the poly crowd"..
but it was the feast for the eyes~
hehe~
left b4 the place closes..
classes start at 8 today..
but as usual, i couldnt get up..
missed the first lab this morn...
it was the "on-off" lab..
guess i wouldnt miss much~
=)

call me sceptical, call me weird..
but rem i once said i judge a future gf by the feelings which tingles in me?
yah..
felt it recently..
but im not sure..
im always not sure..
tats wat suck~
and im sceptical nowadays..
darent take tat major step into the wooing stage..
afraid of history repeating itself..
i dunno wat to do..
juz gotta take it a step at a time..
=
tats it for now..
will see me here again on mon perhaps..
after my desaru trip~
ciaoz~
=)

dillema...

been ages since i last blogged...
so sorry my loyal fans~
=P

anyway nuting much been happening for the past wk..
caught 2 new movies~
hehe~
T3 n 2 Fast 2 Furious..
here's a short review of both movies wif NO spoilers..
=P
T3: it's a movie basically packed wif action, action n more action..
a storyline which had been repeated since the first ever Terminator movie..
director, sumthing new pls~~ =P
but kristana locken rulz~
hehe~
overall 2 and a half jerkds out of 5..
2F2F: okok.. if ya like cars, cars, cars and babes.. this is the movie to watch..
other than tat, the storyline is as gd as T3~
not much of it~~
i like suki~
the gal who's driving the pink S2000..
drools~~~
but it's the usual gd guys nab bad guys and sex sex sex~
=P
give it 3 and a half jerkds for suki n the cars~!
=)

nuting much happened other than tat dillema im in..
shant tok abt it..
too personal..
but one day when it's finally solved, and when im feeling comfortable enuff,
u guys would noe it..
=)
ciao for now~

judgement call...

wat's ur take on homosexuality??
on lesbians and butches...
on gays and faggots...
wat so u tink of them??

ok for me, i despise them to the core..
i really dun approve nor condone it..
call me conservative, close-minded, old fashioned...
i dun care...
but tats wat i tink..
seriously tink tat those hu turn into the "dark" side are really going against god's rules in playing this game of life..
dun u tink so?
anyway enuff of the rambling of this crap..

can i ask another question?
ever tot tat u got over sumone but realised after tat u hadnt..
okok..
here it goes..

passed S a present cos her bdae juz passed..
as a fren i guess a present for her bdae aint anything...
later on we continued to msg each other..
den later we on to the topic of bf..
asked her if she had any..
and she said no...
so i said y not?
and she continued to say dat she fall for gers instead..
den came in my hatred for homos..
i was so damn hurt..
(and i dunno y i felt tat way..)
i pressed on to ask her y she turned tat way...
she answered tons of stuff..
anyway the prob lies here...
y would i feel so hurt, as if it's the end of the world, if i had gotten over her??
i told her i was disappointed n hurt..
and in the end she told me it was all juz a joke..
she wasnt..
but it's too late..
i actually pour tons of stuff unto her..
i told her she hurt me loads..
and i start to ponder..
do i still like her?
i haf no idea..
haf i gotten over her?
i dunno..

but one thing's for sure...
i care for her alot..
im confused...

sch sux~

ever been strange in a familiar environment??
ironic sentence but it's wat happened...
first day at sch..
it wasnt my very first, first day at NYP..
ya noe wat i mean..
but it's really weird..

i entered the classroom, which i had entered umpteenth time..
everything looks and feels strange...
furniture and fixtures were in the same position..
faces were diff though..
totally new faces..
cun recognise them..
even the lecturer..
never seen him before..
asked him whether i was in the rite class n yes i was..
settled down n muttered, "this gonna be a loooooooong semester"..
and i believed it would be..
after surveying the entire class, 3/4 of them, i dun even noe~
the other quarter are a bunch of hi-bye frens~
if not pple i dun really like..
sigh~
see my plight??
none of my classmates nor pple i can get along wif were wif me..
neither were my kilq(my version of clique) who were in an entire diff stream as me..
=gonna forge new relationships wif new pple..
this is one time i missed the degenerates of a bunch of classmates of mine..
this is the one time i really missed those noisy bunch of kliq i haf...
this is gonna be an entire lonely and miserably long semester...
=(

thnx for all u guys' concern over the accident..
im alrite n im fine..
no major injuries and all..
still walking on this green earth~
not buried six feet under...
=P
thnx loads~
appreciate ur concerns~
=)

missed me??

it's 3 am on a saturday morn..
but to me, i'll call it a late late friday nite..
=)

anyway was spurned to write sumthing after wat shaunie said..
so here it goes, a chronicle of wat happened in the past few days..
be prepared to get shocked by stuff im gonna say..
:P

weds went alrite i guess..
but was really really demoralised..
find tat i cun boulder anymore..
feel like quitting climbing altogether..
arms totally no strength to sustain myself on the wall..
lack of training or simply too weak..
tink it's the latter..
sigh~
and to tink tat im gonna get enlisted in a yr's time..
how to serve my nation like this~~
haha~
went to gnc after our climb...
i haf a damn urge to get Nitro-Tech..
a protein supplement to enhance lean mass n strength..
2 things i really need now..
hm..
shld i??
im scrawny....
i noe..
=(

thurs was a day of mixed emotions for me..
woke up real late cos apparently all my frens aint free for me~
ate my brunch and got going on my bike..
did some minor adjustments and gave "her" a thorough wash and polish..
but the sky gotta break open in the middle of it all..
continued at the nearby block's void deck..
i've never seen "her" as shiny as i did tat day..
a sense of satisfaction set in..
=)
went out for a movie wif my biker frens..
caught Charlie Angels..
a piece of advise is tat buy the vcd or d/l it..
it aint worth watching..
unless ya into soft porn..
all i see is the 3 lead ladies almost naked bodies..
and of course their bodacious arse~
went on my home after the movie..
on the expressway, there i saw another biker fren of mine..
asked him to go for supper n he agreed..
things changed frm here onwards..
a wonderful day going down hill...
after the supper at Chomp Chomp..
we went our separate ways..
as it was after a heavy downpour..
the road was extremely wet..
at a right turn before Bowen Sec..
i skidded and lost control of my bike..
my left fork lamp was smashed..
crash bar was dented and not to forget tat my side mirror was gone as well..
as for me, i rolled on the ground and found myself few feet away frm the bike..
was obviously in a state of shock..
din realise i was on the road until after a min of realisation..
took off my helmet and guess wat...
left it in the middle of the road.. -_-"
but it was a freaking shock to me..
i wasnt prepared..
injuries are minor..
but i tink my knee is concussed..
it aches and it actually cun be bend at times..
managed to crawl home on the bike..
she's a tough bitch~

friday, today was an average day..
got my wife repaired..
amt coming up to 20 bucks..
not bad~
but the engine and the other parts is not damaged in any other way..
so i guess it's ok..
went to play pool in the nite wif my frens..
i suck at this as well..
but i choose to blame the cue..
it's damn freaking lousy..
imagine when u hit the cue ball and u hear a "tang" sound..
hollow~~
=anyway went on down to changi village for supper..
tats went i had a deja vu..
an almost repetition of yesterday's accident..
but luckily i managed to control the bike this time round..
my heart and every innards i haf was practically in my mouth..
was too shock to even go past 80km/h after tat..
at changi, saw a few REALLY pretty trans~
they look like a genuine female..
but prettier..
technology had indeed advance..
it can make a guy to be a lady, a prettier one at tat as well~
=P

tats abt it for the recap..
kinda long n naggy but i need to pour everything out..
juz to keep track of my personal ride..
=)

=)

my day was short~
mainly cos i woke up real late~
hehe~
not tat late but late enough..
and i would haf slept later if not for gdl who called me..
to confirm our date later~
=P

anyway went for a karaoke session wif the gals in the noon..
gdl, pea and princess went..
i still cun accept the fact tat i was tricked by the princey..
we chatted on fri on icq and i tried to ask her when she's gonna come back to sg..
but silly n naive old me din noe she was already in sg and chatting wif me underneath the same sky..
anyway it was a pleasant surprise on sunday when i received her phone call to tell me she's back..
lets get back to the karaoke..
i booked the room at cuppage plaza..
and we sang n sang~
for 3 whole hrs straight..
very fun~
wif sniggering and laffters thruout the session..
but not enuff for me though..
i want more~~

gotta accompanied pea for abt 2 hrs cos she's meeting her frens later..
din wanna go home so early, tats y i agreed..
anyway we were crapping the whole time thru~
haha~
but we managed to do some incisive window shoppings~
=)
the incentive of it all is........
i get to meet her pretty korean babe of a fren~
hehe~
okok..
she's not TAT pretty but pretty nonetheless..
and u would noe they're gd frens when u hear them speak..
they speak in the exact same bimbotic tone~
hahaha~
anway this goes to pea, dun push me like im some merchandise tat cun be sold~
although i noe i cun be sold but not a merchandise~
haha~
but she seems interested..
or is she??
haha~

sch's starting soon and i haf YET to receive my time table..
wat efficient, ISO9000 approved, sch i haf..
=P
they suck~
anyway not tat anxious to get back to sch..
not tat fun anyway...
but way more fun than work..
work sux~
period.

anyway ciao~
note tat ive been updating everyday..
im trying to keep this up~
juz for the millions, *inhale the anticipating breath*, and millions of my fans~
haha~

........

was feeling rotten yest..
hence tat rotten post..
can juz ignore it..

working today was bored as bored can be~
forgot to bring my book..
den gotta stone thruout the day~
sigh~
'cept for the monkeyS~~

anyway went out wif dong n hif gf at nite..
had dinner at pastamania cos i was really craving for their cabonara~
it rulez~
wif tons n tons of cheese of course~
im cheesy u noe?
=)

was feeling damn awkward thruout the nite..
wif the 2 of them..
juz gotta be the light bulb i guess~
=P

played pool at paradigm and they were having a mini competition wif 2 grps of pple..
quite heated i guess..
but one sided...
they won by a landslide~
it was so formal tat there were even a judge there..
and i tot it was juz a friendly competition..
maybe over territory?
haha~

penned down a poem while stoning away at work today..
not too good i muz say..
but juz some feelings and a dash of sudden inspiration~
=)


love sweet love~

Love, oh sweet love...
The feeling i've been longing for,
slips further & further away.
Just can't get a grip on its core.

Gazing out of the store,
couples galore.
Hugging & kissing,
with all the loving they could have.

How i wish i'm one of them,
without giving a damn!
Expressing love, oh sweet love,
to one another,
in their own sugar-filled world.

sigh....

can't everything be solved by putting $$$ aside??
y muz everything be interwined wif $$$....
im tinking, y muz my youth be spent worrying abt $$$..
i shld be out there enjoying my youth and do watever i can now rather than later...
but apparently there are pple in my life whom doesnt share this logic..

im a happy go lucky person..
i wanna be the bird in the sky and do watever i can now..
cos i noe when i reach the age of 20..
there is nuting i can do to stop the hands of time frm moving all the way to retirement age..
and there would be a long list of things i shld haf done n didnt..
dun mention abt later, but now~
even now i haf a long list of things tat shld had been done but haf not been achieved in my early teens..

life juz stinks...
i hate working yet i need to work to keep my dream...
juz hope tat i can cope wif my third yr work wif working..
tis would be my main worry for the coming yr...

i want a simple life..
wif no worries and headaches..
y muz i haf all of these instead~
wat i dun wan..

quoting remy zero, somebody save me...
quoting creed, can u take me higher...(so tat i can be free)
quoting jeryd, life juz suck~

to all those out there who's maligning me of being a gay..
seriously, i dun give a shit~
say watever u guys wish..
im kinda sick of it..
sick of everything..
when one day i give up on hope..
u dun haf to call me anymore..
juz forget my number...
or simply erase it frm ur hp..

due to popular demand..

been asked by many frens to update my blog more often...
so here it goes~
=)

finally after 2 days of postponement my competition got under way...
had the preliminaries in the morn..
did pretty well on a really tuff route..
it's said to be on par wif routes for the experts..
overall got into a 10th place out of 26th..
quite respectable i muz say~
haha~
got into the semis which is in the noon...
the route is easier BUT it's in a leading format..
which is i gotta clip in the rope as i ascend up the wall...
was reaching out wif my rite hand for the next tile when i din even noe y i slipped n fell..
wat freaking elements made me slipped is still unexplanable to me..
i was questioning myself y it happened and was clutching my hair in frustration..
the guys there can tell u how dumb i looked den..
=P
but in the end still cun get into the finals..
guess gotta try harder next time..
but would they be a next time?
=)

after the comp, went to meet up wif gdl, fin n pea..
went shopping arnd n ate at a hainanese chicken rice stall..
their roasted chicken was gd~
one of the best i've ever tried..
it's on the top floor of far east plaza and it's beside jansen's hair salon..
=P
gdl bought this unique n unusual bracelet..
blue stones binded together wif leather strap...
she went home n was told by her bro tat it can be bought at a pasar malam for $5~
haha~
poor thing~
but i seriously find it nice..
=)

need to do some shopping myself..
and finding new clothes targets..
the 2 shirts i aimed had been deleted frm my check list..
one is unavailable, the other bought by shaunie..
sigh~
poor me~
any sympathisers out there for me??
hehe~

im starting to believe there's actually someone up there in the clear blue sky..
did my customary prayers b4 i climbed today..
did an extra one in isolation for clear weather...
and it actually came true..
it was dark up there b4 the prayer n my nap..
when i woke up it was cleared..
climbing was resumed..
hm...
coincidence or miracle?
u decide..
while i figure it out myself as well..
=)

lack of jeez..

this is a post of feelings and not abt wat happened to me..
juz a fore warning..
=)

find tat i haf a lack of target, or lack of sumthing to look forward to..
im like living everyday wif the mentality tat i juz haf to pull thru yet another day...
not tinking of anything..
carefree...
dunno wats wrong wif me..
care to share??

wat do i need to do to get a target...
ambitions wise, i haf no freaking idea..
wat im studying now is not wat im gonna work as..
tats for sure..
i suck in it~
tats the prob..
wat am i suppose to do?
future, set aside..
wat abt the present..
other than the burden of maintening a bike n paying for it,
i haf nuting else to tink abt..
im starting to feel shallow...

solution, get a gf to kill time, to occupy the void??
is that possible??
i haf no freaking idea..
one after another my heart shatters tat i darent go near this topic anymore..
maybe i shouldnt be the gd guy....
gd guy dies first wif nuting fulfilling ever happens for him..
while the bad guy gets the gers, lives longer and is usually richer..
so y call the bad guy bad when he's so much better off..
i haf no inkling of whoever set these terms...

im full of angst now..
not to mention sadness as well..
all these are targeted at me of course..
i dunno wats wrong wif me...
things arent wat it seems..
im going no where wif this post..
juz take it wif a pinch of salt..
treat it as crap..
i juz need to verbal vomit it all out~

me, me, me...

oh yah did i ever told u guys the trip was fun..
it was fun~
hehe~
damn~
while u guys are suffering in the scorching heat in singapore,
i was enjoyin the chill @ 21 degrees on the hill~
=)
okok enuff of bragging~
but it really was cool n fun~
the way down was bendy~~
hehe~
we went down leaning our bikes so low dat the foot pegs were brushing on the road..
like some MotoGP race...
can check out the pics here~

got my hair cut and dyed~
hehe~
=P
the color is sumwat subtle..
copperish, ashish..
sumthing like tat~
see it when u see me~
hehe~

ok guys, whining session coming up~
=P

ever want to tink of sumone b4 u sleep at nite?
i do..
and everynite i would tink of a blank space b4 i slp..
this void must be filled..
but when? who?
apparently i dunno..
hope i do but i dun..
y dun i get a chance to be on the bachelor~
haha~
den i'll haf like 25 gers to choose frm~
make out wif them, throw them aside~
haha~
kidding..
but i dun mind being on some program like those..
matchmaking shows, the bachelor, watever~
wat an experience it'll be..
hehe~
but then again, it may juz be scripted and not real at all~
sumtimes reality juz suck~
=P

GSS, great spending spree..

been shopping for the past 2 days...
my 2 off days~
hehe~
=P

went out wif pea and gdl yest..
after thoroughly servicing my bike for the trip..
and after buying the armored jacket i need..
which cost 400 by the way..
=)
met them at far east where pea was buying a maternity dress~
haha~
juz kidding..
it's juz tat the dress fluff up in a wat tat it looks like one..
even gdl agreed upon it..
the gers carried on shopping wif me lurking behind, giving some precious $0.02 worth of tots..
=P
went to zara which is where i did MY shopping..
hehe~
got myself this suggestive looking tee which actually look good~
haha~
of course it gotta look good den i'll buy rite?
=P
anyway shall take a pic of it sumtime soon..
saw another shirt which cos 32 bucks...
wondering whether i shld get tat or the one at tangs studio..
pondering pondering pondering..

today was a boring day~
the meeting in the morn was alrite..
things got settled, at least..

met sumone who tingled my feelings inside..
i've always haf one single critical requrement in finding a gal,
she muz make me haf the tingling sensation inside..
and sy did it..
the moment i set my eyes on her today, i couldnt take it off her..
i dunno but she exudes this charm which i cun comprehend..
im turning into an idiot here but hu cares~
=P
anyway lets hope this one works..
=)

after the dreaded rain stopped in the evening, i went on downtown to search for mr veins..
he was at the library..
juz nice, need to return and borrow new bks~
=P
anyway we shopped as well..
went into the harley davidson shop at taka..
got my dad a tee for fathers day..
he wouldnt accept the chaco chong sandals i brought back for him saying it's too ex..
so juz got him sumthing cheaper i guess...
hope he liked it..
it's been awhile since i toked to mr veins and lots of things happened and changed..
he's progressing well and i hope he can get to the decision he needs soon..
u shld not wat i mean mr veins~
=)

tmr's the trip..
cun wait for it..
dunno wat to expect..
juz hope everything would turn up fine~
and guys, juz pray tat u wun pay me a visit when im in a coffin eh??
=)
cya guys in 3 days..
asta la vista baby~
i'll be back~

it's been a hard day's work...

guess wat~
i've juz finished a 11 days non-stop working schedule..
and guess wat again..
im not gonna work till sunday~
WOOHOO~~
going up to Fraser's hill (sumwhere further than KL) on friday..
for 3 whole days~
cun wait for that well deserved break..

gonna service my bike tmr..
b4 the trip of cos~
if not sumthing goes wrong and im dead~
=P
gonna get a pair of gd gloves if they're suitable..
and not to forget a jacket for the trip..
let's hope i haf enuff $$..
=)

that sweet lil bitch did it again..
she came by ori yest and passed me some home baked pineapple tarts..
they were gd i muz say..
cept tat it could be less flaky..
=P
thnx bitch~
i owe ya one..
oh btw, i din eat anything till i got home after ur tarts..
hehe~
:P

last saturday was a hectic day for me..
it was my grandma and my lil cousin's bdae..
i had another official launch meeting for my cruiser grp on tat very same day..
oh not to forget i gotta work~
how am i suppose to juggle it all and fit it into 24 hrs??
here it goes..
i asked the "magnanimous" calvin to let me off early tat day at 5..
den i went on down to upper pierce reservoir for the first part of the launch..
left them when they were heading for dinner and went home to celebrate their bdaes..
hung arnd, chat wif my uncles and their kids...
rushed on down to pitstop, a biker pub at beach road to meet them for the 2nd part of the launch..
luckily they were still there...
anyway we went on to gelang patah, which is in jb for supper..
and i muz say their food is the best~
it's cheap and better than food in sg~
drools~~
we rode on up to kota tinggi..
which is abt an hr and a half ride away..
it was fun..
going thru roads where u cun see...
serious..
when u look back, all u see it pitch black darkness~
and of cos i was secretly hoping not to see any white figure floating arnd..
=P
i was the last man hence the impt responsibility of rounding the riders up~
tats y i can only see darkness..
=)

when i read shaunie's new blog...
im so envious of him..
he gets to shop..
-sniff-
i wanna buy clothes~~
lemme outta my cage~~
=P

oh oh oh oh~~
u guys wun expect this but guess wat...
i finally pierced a second hole in my left ear~~
hehe~
here's a shot of it..
=)


how abt it??
hehe~

im back, n better than ever...

im back...
everything's settled in life..
the bad patch is over..
now is the financial part..
sigh~
too many things to buy, too little money~
haha~
=)

anyway my darling bitch came and find me today..
she was such a dear~
bought me a pack of famous amos cookies..
was so touched..
almost cried~
=P
anyway it's so sweet of u, bitch~
=)
thnx~
appreciate it..

spent abt 2 hrs chatting wif her in the shop..
time passed real fast den..
i guess time always flies when u're wif gd company...

work sux..
my khakis all not working these few days..
MC, retrenched..
no one to tok to..
but it;s still way better than campers..
hehe~

nuting much happened in the past week for me to post...
hence the break..
but went for my class' chalet last wk..
had a fun time..
one of the few times the class were together and doing things as a whole..
glad tat im in this class..
can see bonds being build btw some of us..
=)
my damsel was there as well..
and as usual this knight in shining armor was there to save her~
hehe~
u guys shld not hu im toking abt...

results were out yest...
not bad i find..
at least an A...
but it was expected..
cos anything less than tat i might be disappointed..
=P
juz glad tat i passed everything..
including that dreaded c++...

i find tat i haf no target in life..
i haf no idea wat im gonna do when im out of the army..
im like taking a step at a time n not planning..
it aint gd..
but im trying..
trying to draw a blueprint out for my life..

i've always wanted to get married by the age of 27..
it seems an eternity for me to get married and it seems like tomorrow tat im gonna turn 27..
get the idea?
im not even attached now..
no gers in mind as well..
how am i suppose to reach tat target??
near impossible...
sigh~

anyway met up wif redsky at cine after work juz now..
she was working as stage manager at the stage at cine for the street fest..
the band which played juz now was not bad..
the singer was trying real hard to sound like axl rose and jon bon jovi combined..
he achieved it somehow..
like the gay version of those 2 though..
the band sung covers of songs by deep purple, guns n roses and BON JOVI~~
=)
guitarist was superb~
ask redsky, she'll noe~
=P

frens, gers, do i look like im a playboy??
y do everybody say i look like one??
and mostly this statement are from gals..
do i haf that playboy look??
no...
haha~
but pls leave some comments and shed some light..
im damn curious~
fyi, im a devoted person to the ger i love..
so gers, feel free to approach me..
im no playboy..
:)

-blank-

life's like the title of this post to me...
been very stressed thruout the wk..
handling 2 jobs at a go..
meetin deadlines..
juz glad that the past wk is gone and a new wk is approaching..

everything's fine now..
i hope..
gonna go for my version of "thanks-for-giving" session tmr..
hope everything run smooth..
the last time i went to tat place was when i was a lil kid during xmas...
=P

pumpfest came and went...
we climbed and fell as well...
it was as good as a open standard catt~
tat diff~
all of us din qualify..
not out of the ordinary though...
but gd experience none the less..

anyway still rem the bag i was craving for?
yep, i bought it~
at a slashed rate too~
u guys shld haf seen shaunie's expression when we told him abt the slashed price of his bag~~
haha~

chrome citizen bag on normal days, $180
chrome citizen bag on pumpfest days, $149
shaunie's expression when told of the price dfference during the interval of his 3rd and 4th climb, PRICELESS~

chalet coming up yet no one paid up yet..
wat a class eh~
sigh~
forget it..
gotta wait till tat day itself b4 they finally managed to take out their wallet~

tats it for now..
oh btw, the poem was changed slightly..
go check out the changes~
=)

lost...

i've never felt as lost as i did last nite..
i was practically devastated..
dunno wat to do...
dunno wat to expect...
the sort of feeling, i dun wanna feel again..
it's gd tat everything's settled and i dun wanna dwell on it..

lots of things happened to me..
it as though a whole lifetime of events happened to me in this short period of time..
my fren got into an accident on fri...
sent him to the hospital..
he fractured and practically broke his entire wrist...
oh forget to mention it was a bike accident..
anyway he's recovering and hope he get well soon...

i suddenly dun feel like typing anything or say anything...
multitude of emotions and feelings are coming over me..
tink will juz say watever on my mind sumtime later or not at all..

lemme end this post wif a poem i wrote at work..

falling...

Life was never good,
it'll never be...
Hurdles mounted on my path,
just for the sake of a good, hearty laugh,
especially when i fall.

What could i do to make it right?
To fight?
Or just wait for the light,
to guide thru this all.
When i fall.

miss me???
yep, did u guys missed me??
been missing for ages~
cun blame me, last wk was exams wk..
studies more impt dun u tink?
=P

anyway i'll recap watever exciting dat happened alrite?
=)

nuting much happened thruout the wk actually~
haha~
except for the fact that all out faces after weds paper was a dejected one...
all of us were like "sure fail lah", "no hope"...
and i couldnt agree more..
tat was one of the toughest paper i ever had..
=P
but i had one of the easiest paper as well~
my last one..
it was so easy tat i completed it in like 40 mins..
a 2 hr paper...
=P
act most of us finished at the same time..
haha~

after my last paper, which is on saturday, i met up wif those pk bros of mine..
we installed the hazard light together and my oh my, it's great~
couldnt haf done better~
haha~
but a bracket muz be done for the switch though..
went into jb wif them tat very same nite..
my virgin ride into a foreign land..
it was thrilling..
especially when ur normal speed is 120km/h and the fastest u can go is 155km/h~
=)
yep tat was how fast i sped~
but lets tok abt the food~
-drools-
i ate my favourite~
RAMLY DOUBLE SPECIAL BURGER~~
hehe~
guys rem tat??
it was satisfying...
when the chilli sauce drip down ur hand..
damn~
it was dat damn gd~
=)
the ride back was when i went full speed~
155km/h~~~
mind blowing speed~
=P

sunday was mother's day~
i planned my day down to the very sec~
i was supposed to go haf breakfast in the morn den went on down to get mum's prezzie..
a stress-relieving tea, supposedly being sold at paragon..
so i left home giving an excuse tat im meeting a fren...
went down town and couldnt find the damn place tat sold the damn tea~
called gdl and nut up and none of them could find that damn article tat i saw..
so i went to heeren, walk arnd and in the end got myself a pair of sunglass~
hehe~
but i went home after tat and rummaged thru piles n piles of newpaper...
me too, i cun find it...
im beginning to tink i had dreamt it instead...
so i told my dad i'll leave house earlier to get sum stuff den meet them at the restaurant for yvonne's wedding dinner...
rushed down to cine and got a handbag for my mum instead...
at least she liked it~
=)
the wedding dinner was boring..
but meeting my former colleagues werent~
we chatted and joked all nite long...
tat took the boredom away i guess~
=P

working at campers today sux..
it was tiring..
stood the whole day..
customers came flooding in by the hordes...
entertained them...
tried shoes for them..
climbed up n down~
sigh~
i wanna go cine~~
=P
tmr another long day there..
wish me luck~

MIA..

that's wat ive been doing lately isnt it??
=P
anyway it's cos i cun find the time to write anything or juz tat inspiration wasnt flowing on tat particular day...
:p

hm...
let's see wat'd happened to me recently..

anybody saw a bunch of 20 phantoms on the road in weds nite??
did ya spot me??
haha~
but imagine this..
20 of us riding on the road wif our exhaust roaring out loud..
intimidating isnt it?
other than the other 5 harleys, we WERE intimidating..
it was one hell of a fun outing wif those guys frm the pk...
the riding part was of course the fun part..
they brought me to this place, wonderful for a make out session...
seletar dam..
secluded, facing the sea...
every aspects included for a session wif u and ur loved one~
=P
it was a nice place wif cool breeze and funny company~
gonna do it more often..
=)

had to study even on a public holiday..
sigh~
met up wif "8" at shaw towers to study..
but i was shock to find out tat there wasnt a single table available at my fav study haunt..
den guess we went??
changi airport...
last resort i guess..
but it was a nice n condusive environment for a study session..
or shld i say chitchatting session..
haha~
guess we toked as much as we studied~
dinner was great except the price of it..
ate at swensons~
the chicken baked rice rulex i tell ya~
not to mention their trademark ice cream...
=P
there was this family of caucasian sitting nearby wif a kid in his stroller..
"8" couldnt help herself and kept on teasing n playing wif the kid..
when i turn arnd and played wif him, he frowned...
??????
im experiencing the shaunie effect..
damn~
his dad smiled at me and i juz said "he juz doesnt like me"..
and tat is so true...
n i tot only shaunie would haf this effect on kids...
=P

pay cheque is in everybody~~
=P
got a dillema now...
shld i spend it or save it..
cos if i wanna go on a trip at the end of may i gotta use the money..
i wun be getting my pay for the next mth so soon..
guess i shld put it on hold but chrome is calling...
wat shld i do??
the hatyai trip is very enticing..
i wanna go...
oh i forgot to mention tat we'll be riding there...
=P
how fun it's gonna be..
gonna mod my bike there as well..
i really like the handlebar which resembles a shadow...
make my bike look bigger..
hehe~
shall consider it real clear b4 i make my decision i guess..
any help is welcome on the tagboard~
=P

study study study study study...

tats wat everybody's doing these days..
exams..
the dreaded 5 letter word..
if only im in tat new poly, republic..
where exams and tests are juz a story of the past..
yep, they dun haf tests and exams and the students are judged according to their assignments and projs...

went climbing yest after a suspension of a wk or so..
really felt gd at the beginning but started to "nua" after a while..
as usual..
haha~
but the workout after tat is tiring..
no thnx to fin fin the arse~
haha~
but it was fun...
=P

ikea was the next stop for our usual practice of hot dogs...
or shld we call them cold pussies frm now on..
hahaha~~
it was a term coined yest due to jappo's influence on me..
he started out wif cold cat and i juz changed it into cold pussies which haf a better ring to it..
i like my "pussy" to be filled wif ketchup...
so if u juz let ur mind wander a lil...
wat does ketchup and pussies got in common??
hahaha~
tat made me, jappo, fin and yandao(keith) burst out in laughters..
and mind u, we were loud~
haha~
we carried on wif more "jokes" before headin home..
guys, we shld really stop makin such comments and jokes while eating again..
it's not healthy for out tummies, quoting my doc..
=P

gotta go down to campers to settle some sales stuff..
i forgotten i was carrying my fake MS pouch and walked into the shop..
and tat stupid santoso spilled the beans abt the origin of my pouch to da boss~
got a lecture frm them..
sigh~
not my fault wat~
not working for them den..
damn tat santoso~
haha~

today was a relatively uneventful day..
nothing much happened except the pretty lady in exec clothes sitting beside us while studying...
hahaha~
okok...
im not a pervert nor wat u guys term a "colour wolf"..
but she was enticing me in everyway possible..
cos she was sitting directly in front of the direction i was sitting..
she crossed her leg and her very mini-skirt wasnt covering much..
but she was pretty..
gotta give her credit for tat..
=)

fate...
wat is fate?
can man actually control fate or izzit juz an inexplicable event bound to happen?
i tink it's the latter...
no matter how u try to change it, it'll still creep up to ya..
weird but true...
but fate is playing a game wif me...
im happy in this material world but never in the world of my heart..
as steve taylor yells "there's a hole in my soul that's been killing me forever"...
there is tat gap there to be filled by tat four letter word...
my best fren juz reminded me tat im single for like 3 yrs already..
hence this column of love~
wonder when fate would actually stop playing and give me tat thing to fill the gap...

long long time ago....

y the topic for this post??
cos this is gonna be along story telling session tats y...
u guys requested it, u guys get it~~
=P

let's start wif school...
lessons is officially over for this sem..
or so they say..
we gotta go back to sch juz to finish up this assignment we couldnt complete on time cos of cancellation of lessons due to SARS..
wat a long sentence..
but anyway it's crap i tell ya..
eating time into our study break..
we still gotta study for exams if u hadnt known~
SUCKERS~
projects are all completed..
none to worry, none to tink abt..
this feeling of burden-less is so free..
like a bird in the sky...
like a fish in the sea...
u get the idea...

everyone gotta get their temp taken as a precautionary measure in sch..
i dun mind taking it as it's my "social-responsibility" but can they not be too paranoid over it...
a little sore throat n they advice u to take the test at a later date...
i tink it's too much...
juz let he/she take it...
it's juz a harmless sore throat..
pe-leassssssssee~~~~~~~~~
=P

haven climbed for a wk~
i feel so heavy bottomed and decomposed..
haha~
serious man..
need to climb soon~
and tat would be tmr~
yeah baby~
was buying dinner at taka and saw a wall there~
i ran down to the main atrium n bouldered for a lil while..
saw zaki n gang there..
apparently osim hired them to built a wall for their promotion purpose..
i miss those tiles i tell u..
-sniff-
-sniff-

work was tiring today..
all the way to 10~
boredom~~
but finally get to go home~
gave a lift to one of the gers there...
n she held on for dear life during the entire ride..
never am i gonna pillion anyone hu said their afraid of bikes again..
never am i gonna try to help them overcome their fears...
never am i gonna insist them taking it...
never am i gonna be tat stubborn anymore...
she held on so tight, i had trouble breathing...
:P
but got her home safe n sound n she enjoyed it..
so i guess it's alrite..

i cun believe my rotten luck..
how rotten can it get..
i got summoned twice in 2 days..
for the same offence for the same amt of cash~
$8 each on the count of not putting parking coupon...
i overlooked the fact that those makchiks are damn onz although it'a a saturday nite..
but today, today was a damn mistake which shldnt happen..
i completely forgotten to put the coupon although on my way down, i reminded myself..
only rem when i went to buy dinner..
damn~
another 8 bucks..
16 bucks in total..
wat a freaking waste of money, i tell u..
so kids, never follow my mistake..
=)

had a gd n thorough tok wif sumone last nite..
she made me realise things which ive been blinded before..
she made me realise i never knew wat life was abt in the first place..
she made me realise im living in happiness although i tink im not...
thnx a million babe~
things start to seemed clear to me..
i know wat i shld do...
=)

exams are in 2 wks time..
after tat, it's game over for this sem..
and next sem would be the crucial one..
cannot afford to slip up..
i cun..
i wun..
a resolution made on the 28th of April 2003, 12:15am
so guys, help me out when im off will ya?
=P

medal of honor...

i shld be awarded the medal of honor~
haha~
y???
cos i caught a thief yest..
and the thief ITself is a category of humans which i detest the most..
hehe~
guys who're close to me noes wat im toking abt..
anyway the story goes like this..
i was helping to tend the stall of my neighbour cos she need to use the ladies..
den this lesbo couple came in..
the butch was fidgeting abt the rows of necklaces and juz took one of it and grasp it tight in IT's hand..
i noticed it and waited till it left the stall...
den i approached it...
me: "Can i see wat's in ur hand?"
it open up her palm..
me: "was tat frm the shop?"
it: "oh, i forget to pay for it"
me: "u noe wat's tat called? stealing..."
it: "im going in to pay now"
i took the necklace and walked back to the stall and it followed me back..
the best part was that when it paid, and the salesger in the shop told it it's $5.80..
it exclaimed "wah so cheap ah??"
if it's dat cheap y steal??
DUMBASS~~~~~

i tink u guys shld read Tuesdays with Morrie...
it's a, i muz say, a life influencing book...
a true story abt the author's visits to his sick professor b4 he died...
the quotes frm morrie, who is the prof, is wat i call wall banging...
it's like after u read it, u feel like u've banged into the wall and "BANG", some sense was knocked into ya...
and doubts u once had was much clearer now...
not obvious but clearer...
im not afraid to admit tat i was touched to near tears..
although it's a thin book, it's life changing..
give it a try..

anybody watched final destination 2??
they were saying tat signs would appear to tell u wat would happen b4 it actually does..
believe in signs??
signs been appearing arnd for me..
things tat show the "path"...
or shld i say quotes and horoscope..
=P
anyway things had been like hinting me to do wat i've been doubting for quite some time...
i daren't move forward according to these signs..
n i dun tink i shld do nuting...
maybe i shld juz belive in those signs eh??
=)
i guess it aint there for nothing..

posts of absentees~

this gonna be a long post..
warning had been sound~

yest, gd friday..
2 days b4 tat, my grandma asked me to go church wif her..
i say see first..
i dunno y..
to me, i dun mind going to church and all but im afraid i'll offend my parents who by the way are buddhists..
i am, wat i tink i am, a free thinker..
my belief is tat there is a god above and all this religions are juz hear-say, rumors, stories of wat humans(us) made up to make ourselves believe in sumthing...
so for me, i juz believe in that god above..
=)

caught johnny english yest wif the nut...
it's a lame movie..
lame till the point by which u cun stop laffing~
serious man~
it's damn lame..
rowan atkinson is back to his best, impersonating a "talking" mr bean...
it's a spoof of james bond..
down to the very details..
aston martin, babes(natalie imbruglia, drools~~), villians wif evil scheme, and punch lines..
except for this case, the punch lines are as lame as it can get..

had the dreaded lab test today..
first time i actually know wat's going on in there...
got the prog running but not exactly the way they want it...
but lets's hope it's enuff to pass me..
-prays-, really HARD~

met up wif the bitch later on at orchard..
had a fun tok wif her at ya kun..
listening to stories of gers walloping guys..
scary i tell u..
juz hope i dun get such fiesty gers..
i cun handle it~
haha~
but they'll be fun in bed~
hahahaha~
got myself a tee wif a colour no one expect me to get~
haha~
it's more of jappo's colour..
a PINK tee..
the pic is at the end of the post..
go check it out and leave ur comments..
=P

The Tots Column:
the rain sux..
it had been raining consecutively on every afternoon since last week..
bad bad news for riders like me..
my 2 rain coats are left hanging cos of it..
pls juz stop this temperamental weather..
i cun take it~
=\

it's juz a sudden surge of tot but had anyone of u actually tot of this??
wat's the diff btw making love and sex when they're both referring to the same thing...
did a quiz on virgin and the results showed tat im an idealistic virgin...
the sort which tinks tat sex is making love and it's sacred and tinks tat it's the perfect thing if being done to the one i love...
and i muz say they're spot on...
to me, sex is done btw 2 individuals juz out for the thrill n doing it for fun..
while making love is when 2 individuals, really in love, willing to sacrifice anything for each other are doing the same process..
to me, i prefer making love..
if it's not making love, i'll rather not do it..
i may stay a virgin forever wif this mindset..
but i find tat it's morally correct..
rather not go against my conscience..

ever felt like a door stopper??
used to hold on there for a while, den when ya of no use, a slight kick of u and u're out of the way...
i do~
i felt like it..
sumone was stranded sumwhere cos of sum circumstances..
so sumone called me...
beated arnd the bush..
hinting here n there for me to meet up..
but i cun meet for long so i told it straight to sumone..
sumone said will msg again..
but up till this post, haven a single thing frm sumone..
most prob sumone had other company and this door stopper is kicked away..
im not surprised..
kinda expected it as well..
i tink anyone would also feel like wat im feeling now...
hurt...
or maybe im too sensitive...
but still hurt...

here is the pic of my nice pinky tee~
juz love the astro boy print on it~
hehe~
=P


nice????

pictures...

nothing much for the day..
except spending another $30 on my wife and staring at the comp the entire day..
=P
but here it goes..
for ur eyes' pleasure...


this was a party for jess cum chinese new yr party at my place.. bbq and karaoke n stuff~
frm left to right, clockwise:soprano, gdl, princess, jappo, timmy, mr veins' legs, pea and fin


@ eun's place during chinese new yr as well..., in fact it's the day after the event above~
frm left to right, top row: soprano, nut, gdl, princess, 2nd row: jappo, me n mr veins


ever wonder wat it's like frm the top? this is a view frm the top, of the rock wall tat is~


can u spot the odd ones?? hint: it's the smiling ones~ =)


ever wonder how the maker of me looks like? there they are~


here is a bunch of pple i spent my pri sch days wif... geeks, nerds, yandao(me) u name it,
we got it.. haha

chrome....

i tink chrome is the brand of the moment man..
everybody's targetting a chrome bag...
including your highness, here..
=P

but today, finally we got ourselves a first buyer..
haha~
finfin and shaunie bought it..
fin bought the mini-metro, jet black..
while shaunie bought the citizen, orange..
for me..
i gotta wait till i get my pay~
at the end of the mth..
sigh~
still few wks ago..

had weird dreams last nite..
i dreamt i screwed my test on saturday up~
wonder if it's a sign~~
hope not~
and after tat i dreamt tat i was backpacking..
in SINGAPORE~~
wat the heck~
but tat wasnt the point..
i was swimming in a reservoir?
huh~
haha~
but tat was it..
the best was tat i dreamt of chloe~
hehehe~
guys, this aint a wet dream..
relax~
hahaha...

today's pics section's theme is grp shot..
take a look...


this was taken on the eve of my bdae, went out to celebrate.. as u can see, i was flushed.. hehe~
frm left to right: mr veins, finfin, me n shaunie


this was of the same event as above...
frm left to right: nut, pea, princess, judo chick n soprano


this was taken in a starbucks outlet in patpong, bangkok.. it's the a-go-go area of bangkok.. hehe~ lots of topless bar there~
frm left to right: dustbin, my bestest fren and ME~


it was chinese new yr @ nut's place.. quite a fun event~
frm left to right: me, nut(standing), jappo, soprano n mr veins

pictures of the day...

oops!
forget to post the pictures for the day..
anyway fin complained there weren't enuff pics of my frens and too much of ME~~
haha
so here goes some of u guys man~

note: all pics below are taken during princess' farewell dinner at marina south~

this is a pic take b4 the dinner commenced wif a few of us gathered together...

frm left to right, standing: judo chick, jappo, soprano n nut
sitting : "cun rem his name", timmy, me, mr veins, fin n pea

this is of the babes and the er... not so babes~ hahaha~
dun u find yoke lin aka pretty babe pretty~
i find it so~
hehe~

frm left to right, standing: pretty babe(haha), nut, soprano, judo chick
sitting : gdl, princess n pea

this was as usual a sabo pic wif me being carried up by the guys..
jappo started to split my leg first den fin followed... hence the crotch showing~
haha~

frm left to right, standing: shaunie, timmy, "cun rem his name"
sitting : mr veins, fin, me n jappo

FAT FAT me.......

i haf a humongously huge tummy~~~
it's as gd as 5mths pregnant..
haha~
=P

the cause of it is due to the scrumptous, sumptous, delicious intercontinental buffet @ merchant court hotel..
ate to my heart's desire...
it's first time i ate till i cun even drink a sip of water..
if so, my stomach would juz explode right there and den~~
no joke man..
i can feel the skin stretching to the max at my stomach region~
haha~
but anybody going there, u gotta try their durian paste~
once u put it in ur mouth, u'll feel like ya in heaven~
the thing juz melts in ur mouth..
really really gd~
=P
oh yah their peranakan food there is nice as well..
up to my grandma's standards~
hehe~
oh btw this meal din cost a single cent on my part~
a treat given by fatass..
thnx dude~
it's was great~

was climbing at BM b4 the dinner..
had a short climb den head down to fall factor, a rock climbing equipment shop..
shaunie wanted to look at the chrome bag which im really really craving for~
anyway we spent abt an hr in there trying out bags, deciding which one to get..
i stuck to my initial decision of chrome while shaunie had tastes in chrome, timbuk2 and ortlieb..
i got a hunch he'll get the timbuk2~
juz a hunch..
fin got his eyes set on an ortlieb silver bag..
it's not bad as well..
90% he'll get it~
haha~~
trust me on this~
for me, i gotta wait for my this mth's pay to get the chrome bag...
really liked it..
check the bag out...
give ur opinions on it at the side peeps~
everybody found something they needed to ponder whether to buy not at the shop today..
mr veins liked the prana climbing shorts which cost $75...
but and muscleger liked the timbuk2 bags...
guess fall factor gonna earn a hell lot frm us man~


You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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ooooooh~~
im the loving smile~
but it's kinda true..
weird how it act tells how you are..
or make u tink tat wat they say IS u..
sumthing to ponder abt...

yest, Sunday's post

sigh~
was tremendously, very, totally, damn disappointed to haf my appointment wif the bitch cancelled..
was looking forward to it cos it's been some time since i last saw her..
but she got sumthin on in the end..
there goes a day of activity..

am i the only one or is there pple out there who dreads to go to ur grandparents' place..
it's not that i dun like them or im not fillial,
it's juz tat im spending useless time there..
i juz sit there and rot while my mum haf her conversations wif her mum...
today was likewise..
all 3 of us, my dad, me and my bro juz sat and fell asleep~
=P
but u cun blame us, we're dead bored~

im gonna go broke if more pple's bdae coming up..
yest was fatass' prezzie, today was for "novena"...
couldnt decide wat to get for her..
hope she likes it..
shant reveal wat it is here..
cos i noe she's reading this somtime or rather~
=P

am i too young to feel tired of living?
or am i juz too tired of being alone...
today was a day when i feel really all alone..
needed someone to shop for prezzie wif me..
but msged a million of them and none of them are free..
for me that is...
even my own bro has his own prog and no time for me..
ended up all alone..
settled the shopping fast and juz go home after tat...
but it got me tinking..
y muz i keep on living if im gonna live in loneliness...
im sumone hu's afraid of loneliness..
afraid of boredom..
i need sumone to do sumthing together..
sigh~
despair and disappointment in life and myself...


frm now on i try to add a mini pic section at the end of each post..
maybe a pic or two..
for ur personal pleasure..
Enjoy~


(my precious wife~)


(cool pic of 7 bikes~ spot my wife??)

prezzies~

juz found out last nite fatass' bdae is on mon n he's giving me n dustbin a treat on tues..
we decieded to go to Merchant Court Hotel for buffet dinner~
woohoo~
lavish treat baby~
so if he's gonna give us a treat, of course we gotta give him sumthing back in return rite??
we decieded to go on down to bugis to shop for his prezzie~

went to Bugis Junction first..
found out the things there are way above budget~
although our budget aint tat high ini the first place~
=P
den the idea of bugis street came to mind~
products of affordable and cheap price~
haha
reached there and inhale the humidness of the place and of course, the heat~
managed to find this really cool astroboy tee..
damn, so tempted to get it..
but no $$ for the wk..
after getting sumone's prezzie~
guess wat we bought in the end??
it may sound cheapo but it's the tot that counts, remember??
;p
we bought 2 tees @ $18 for him..
it's nice i muz say n suits him juz fine~
hehe~

dustbin came by my place later on..
caught the Newcastle-Man Utd match..
damn~
how did the magpies managed to lose by 4 goals after scoring a magnificent goal by jenas~~
sigh~
guess no use crying over split milk but they suck i tell u~
in wat frame of mind are they playing in today~~
guess there goes the title hopes~

i din tell her abt it but the more i read her blog, the more i miss the princess..
maybe cos her presence here always pull 2 diff kliq together..
and in the end it resulted in one big grp..
tat spelt F-U-N~
ever since she left, we haven met up in a big grp...
but missing her screechy voice as well~
when she goes round scolding others~
hahaha~
and as always, jappo's the butt of her abuses~
sigh~
those were the days~
as if it's that long ago~
haha~
=)

anyway here would be some pics..
thnx to niki~
saw her advice in nut's tag board...


(frm left to rite: jappo, zak wif cap, shaunie, me and fin)


(frm left to rite: me as spiderman, me as superman, me as batman =P )

chef jerkd..

woke up real late for my climbing session wif the guys..
so in the end i juz stayed home...
=P

din noe wat to do till the idea of baking the cake i saw on tv a few wks ago~
it was on some cutlery show wif this english chap going round england to whip some dishes..
found the cake he baked interesting and took down the recipe..
it was sumthing called choc fudge on choc~
a layer of choc fudge on top of the choc cake..

went on down to NTUC to get ingredients got the cake...
the bill came up to $13..
i was tinking at the cashier den tat wun it be cheaper to buy frm the nearby bakery?
haha~
but it's the satisfaction and thrill in making sumthing tat counts~
went on home and created a mess in the kitchen...
choc spilled over on the stove...
kitchen table full of flour...
tats the case when it's ur virgin cake~
haha~

it turned out fine i guess...
"rave" reviews frm everyone hu tasted it..
frm gdl to me~~
haha~
but gotta admit it's too sweet~~~
u gotta haf a sweet tooth to like it~
=)

this may be the start of chef jeryd..
hu noes in ten yrs time, pple would queue to taste wat i cooked~
haha~
wat a joke tat would be~
=P

one of those moments...

this is one of those times when u dunno wat u shld write or say here
but juz feel like doing so...
so below might be some crap,some shit,
heck care if ya dun like it, cos i do~
=P

ever realise that songs actually sings wat ya feeling??
i did...
for the entire nite in fact..
n i din choose it frm my 374316868744358 mp3s..
but was randomly played by my winamp...
sad sappy love songs..

it seems that me starting this blog causes a chain reaction of frens of mine to start their own..
shant name anybody here but he/she gotta do sumthing wif chestnut...
hehe~
but it's gd in some ways and of course there are the bad points...
gd as in i can actually noe wat's happening in they're lives and wat they're tinking..
cos it's not all the time u'll go round asking ur frens wat's happening wif them..
bad in a way that everything is exposed here and u're not even sure the person who's not
supposed to read it, is reading it not~
but there's always pros and cons to everything tat revolves wif the world..

had a meaningful conversation wif jappo earlier on..
one of the rarer times we had it~
haha~~
we were toking abt "newface"(ya shld noe who) den slowly wandered into the subject of gers in general..
he was saying that "although we dun look like vj utt but we ain that disgusting" and "we dun haf rotten characters as well"....
it was so damn true tat i started to wonder y..
but still no answer came to mind...
it always happens..
am i despair or am i resigned to my fate??
wait a minute, it means the same thing...
=)

it's late...
better catch up wif my sleep...
but sumtimes i wish i can sleep by tinking of sumone who's dear to me and noe there she's tinking of me too...
as the saying goes, reality and fantasy dun go hand in hand...
if only im living in my own dream world..
i tink i shld stop dreaming and tinkin too much of things which i noe i can never get..
i tink i shld stop living too...
life's so much better when u dun haf it..
isn't it?

guys' nite out....

since this wk is my buddy dustbin(charles)'s blocked leave,
i promised we'll go out some day to experience the nite life~
nice way to put it eh??
=P

anyway dustbin, fatass(kelvin, another NS guy) and me went down to zouk..
the kiasu me went b4 9 wif fatass to get the happy hr cover~
haha~
wat to do? im still studying~
=P
we sat down at the table near the dance floor and started our rader scan..
not bad for an early nite..
quite a number of pretty gals starting to appear..
=D
"she" said she'll be there so i asked to meet her..
she was as gorgeous n beautiful as ever...
never changed a single bit..
in fact, she looked so much more prettier than b4..
=)
she told me tat she could get me in free, damn~
shld haf called her earlier...
:P
anyway the music suck tonight~
house music..
dun like it at all...
but we still dance the nite away~
after our 2 drinks each~
=P
not bad i wasnt even high~~
we saw this couple making out for like forever at a pillar on the dance floor..
we went like, wanna do it do it sumwhere less distinct..
y there??
haha
but the gal was attractive though~
=P
we left at abt 250...
cos singapore's law said all nite entertainment must end at 3~

on the way back was a FIRST for me..
i was stopped by a bunch of police officers at a road block along the road to my house...
for those who are curious, it's the rd leading to hougang stadium..
they asked me to ride to one side n this nice officer came by and asked for my IC and license...
he asked me where i came frm..
instinctively i told him chinatown instead of zouk..
if i told him the truth, most prob i need to go thru some tests to ensure tat i wasnt drunk~
hehe~ a white lie muz be told~~
=P
anyway he went away wif the documents for abt 5 mins b4 he came back n said "sorry brudder, juz some routine check, u can go now"
not bad ah~
very courteous~
not all police officers are like tat...
some are arrogant fools~
hehe~~

it's 4am in the morning and the sleep deprived me needs some of the deprivation he lacks..
so gd nitez to all, and if i dun see u, good morning, good afternoon and good evening..
=)

question..

there are signs out there which actually tells u wat's gonna happen..
or maybe hint ya here n there...
den this fren of mine confided in me over his "love" problem..
been tinking abt it myself..
how would u guys react over this...

if A actually disappointed ya and really made u real sad...
sad to the point that u lose hope in almost everything..
doesnt stay in contact wif ya although u did...
den suddenly, A starts to call u up again...
would u react positively or negatively to her??
would u welcome her back wif open arms or shoo A away?

opinions??

paranoia...

i dun understand..
i really really dun understand...
y is everyone so paranoid??
the older the person is, the higher the paranoia in him/her...

take for example, this noon at bukit merah safra...
the guys and i went to pay for our climbing session at the rock gym..
the usual "auntie" at the counter there saw our student pass and asked us "shouldnt u all be quarantined?"
we tried to explain to her tat out sch wasnt one of those which were quarantined and tat we are allowed to go wherever we wish...
but she kept on saying tat in the confines of the rock gym, we would be even more likely to get the disease...
we juz nodded our head n waited for her to process our application to climb..
inside of me, i was tinking, if the 3 of us have it,
we would pass it on to her already since we toked to her in close proximity and for a substantially long time..
=P

den came my parents..
getting paranoid when i told them i wanna go to malaysia for a makan trip..
they said that i may bring sumthing back and blah blah blah...
and infect the whole family and blah blah blah...
i really wanna go and this shit happens..
damn~
damn pissed wif everything now..

heard frm fin he's in the exact same situation..
y muz they over react over such stuff~
my mum say i dunno cos im still young..
maybe true~
im more carefree~
but wat's youth and wat's life if i dun do wat i wanna do when i can..
do u want me to regret not doing these things when im all old and wrinkled..
u're only young once~
tats it~
u dun go forever young like the song goes..
damnit~

help??

i need help frm anybody out there who can identify this song for me..
here it goes~

You come on like a dream, peaches and cream
Lips like strawberry wine
You're sixteen, you're beautiful and you're mine

You're all ribbons and curls, ooh, what a girl
Eyes that sparkle and shine
You're sixteen, you're beautiful and you're mine

You're my baby, you're my pet
We fell in love on the night we met
You touched my hand, my heart went pop

Ooh, when we kissed I could not stop
You walked out of my dreams and into my arms
Now you're my angel divine
You're sixteen, you're beautiful and you're mine

anybody noe wat it is??
reply me by tagging at the board on ur left~
thnx~
=)

worries...

pple everywhere here are getting sceptical and afraid over the SARS issue...
not that im one of them, but im kinda the victim~
=P

during my lab lesson today, i happened to haf a headache and a slight fever(or so they say)...
my classmate beside me went "eh jeryd, u better go home.. dun pass it to me"...
i went blank~
partly due cos i juz got up frm my nap (hehe~) but mostly cos im not even infected wif the virus, juz some common ailments of a normal human being and im being ostracized here...
i would never do that to a fren or anybody...
maybe take precautions if he/she had the virus but not ostracize...
it's this time when that particular person needs support the most..
and pple arnd juz shun away...
-shakes head-
and they say we're the educated bunch~
yah educated, wif no morals~
Disclaimer: this is in no reference to anybody but juz some tots and views on my part alone..
in other words, dun tink too much~~ =)

at the dinner table, had a talk abt this issue wif my parents...
my dad was saying he pitied the family of the chinese doctor whom supposedly was the source of the virus..
he was saying that he may not be the source, he's juz the person who found out abt the virus in him first and made it public to warn the rest..
and bcos of this, his family was threatened, scolded at and looked down upon by pple..
it's times like this when i feel like going back to the kampung era where everybody is for everybody, not for themselves...
and we went on toking abt y malaysia never reported on any cases of the virus over at their end...
and my dad said tat they're another china, dun wanna admit tat they haf it to spoil their tourism business and pple coming into msia for various reasons...
i had to add this in, wat fin said to me this morn, mahatir to dumb to even noe tat it's in their country~~
(no offence to any malaysians out there)
:P

sumone knocked some sense into me last nite...
haven been toking to her for some time and here she comes and gave me some crucial advice to lemme carry on...
we started off by her asking me y dun i haf a gf...
and den i told her the story which she "begged" me to tell her~
after the story telling session, she went on to gimme those precious words...
she said that for me to actually move on and pick up those broken pieces,
i gotta start to forgive tat particular person for any wrongdoing i tot she had done to me...
i went to tink abt it..
i may haf forgotten her(more or less) but i never actually got over the fact y it all boils down to this situation...
can say tat im still kinda sour over it...
shall heed her advice and see how ti goes..
if tats the only way im gonna get on wif it and not tinking of "her" ANYMORE~
:)

could i get any more shag??

one thing i hate more than raining in yishun while climbing,
is the things i gotta do before the rain stops...
=P
u guys shld get wat i mean...
as usual, when there's rain at yishun, we'll head down to the shelter n began out routine..
led by our dear finfin~
n tats when hell rises over~~
haha!!
like wat we said today, "i'll live longer contracting SARS than undergoing fin's routine~"
how true can it get??
we started everything wif dead hangs and campuses..
den moved on to pullups..
mind u it aint normal pullups...
imagine doing 1-10 sets and back down...
woohoo~~
killer man..
=P
but one thing's for sure, this routine, this training is damn gd to to build urself up..
thnx fin~
take it sincerely n sarcastically~
hahaha~~

went on to meet up wif this bunch of riders frm a biking forum..
all of us rode cruisers and imagine 7 bikes on the road riding together~~
INTIMIDATING~~
:P
they were a bunch of guys way older than me..
frm a guy wif hair longer and bald spot wider than my dad's, to a 3rd yr poly student...
had a fun time wif them..
rode frm adam rd food center to mt faber to a seafood restaurant facing sentosa...
way cool dude~
=)
sure to go on longer overseas trip wif them..
but one thing, not only im the youngest there, im also riding the smallest bike..
=P
sianz..
all of them are riding bikes 400cc and above...
my wife's only a 150cc~
hehe~
but the time will come when im riding one of those~
keke~

the dreaded...

on everyone's lips today was SARS...
everywhere u go, u cld hear pple toking abt SARS...
frm how it came by to y arent our sch closed bcos of SARS...
even the four musketeers were making jokes out of the dreaded SARS...

noticed the over-used of the dreaded word?
=P
war btw america and iraq are pushed back to the back of our heads bcos of it...
ive been tinking, wat is of higher importance, SARS or war?
to me, i still cun sought the answer out...
SARS is closer to home but war is of global affairs, everything would be affected in one way or another...
especially price of fuel~
hehe~ :P

maybe i dun feel SARS is as impt cos i dun haf anyone i noe infected wif it yet...
tats always the case for humans...
when u lose it den u want it even more so when u can haf it...

one thing i dun understand is that y are polytechnic's students making a big fuss over the non-closure of the sch...
alhtough i dun agree to the statement the authorities issued over this...
they said " the students in our post-secondary institutions are older and are better able to understand the situation and take the necessary precautions."
but dun they realise that jc students are of the same age grp as polytechnics??
tats for them to go tink abt...

all i hope now is for the god above to resolve all this differences in the war, and to get rid of this worldwide epidemic tat's spreading all over the place...
Peace out~
=)

sorry seems to be the hardest word...

hung out wif jappo n lioness again today after the climbing session...
lioness INSIST of me changing her nick to sumthing nice..
i guess i got to since she was so damn freaking nice to me and i was damn freaking bad to her...
=)
so upon request and self realization on my part, lioness shall be known as gdl frm now on...
wat's gdl??
it's gentle-demure-lady~~
gd enuff??
hehe~
=P
anyway gdl, sorry for all the bad things i said today to ya..
wanted to test to see how long u can withstand b4 u retaliate~
=P
sorry~~
izzit accepted??
:)


sorry seems to be the hardest word,
forgetting seems the hardest thing to do...
trying to forget, but my memory wun erase,
watever we did n went thru...
without you my life seems so dark n blue...
without you i dunno where to go nor wat to do...
so pls darling, come back to where u belong..
me and you...


sudden poetic mood came into me and hence the above..
it may not be the best but at least i tried~
=P
doesnt mean anything though..
juz some inspiration coming frm everywhere...
im weird..
i admit~
=)

absurd!!!!

i find that my sch's management board is the most absurd one anybody can find in this world~~
izzit a bloody crime to freaking park my bike sumwhere convienient for me to access???
f**k u guys man~
the story goes this way...

i parked my bike in the staff corner, where everybody else did the same...
den my fren called in btw my class n said my bike was clamed..
i rushed down frm class n indeed it was..
went to 2 diff places to get it unclamed and made tons of noises...
now here comes the big drama...
went to this "estate management" office to get the key to unlock the bicycle chain..
yeah, it was a bicycle chain they used to lock my bike...
den this fat dude came out frm the rm..
i showed him the piece of paper, he slammed the door on me n went in to get the key...
i took the key n went off..
i went back to the office n guessed wat??
that bloody arse told his superior i used the f**k word on him..
all u cld rem was mumbling how stupid this whole process was...
n of course they interogate me..
i denied all claims n asked wat made him say that..
they couldnt further explain their claims n made me sign this piece of "counselling" form...
the best was their parting shot..
"dun worry, the director would deal wif u.."
all this while that fat arse was staring down at me..
so i replied, "sure y not? pls ask ur guy over there not to stare at me cos im like soooooo scared~"
den walked off...
i was damn freaking pissed the enitire day over this affair...
wat a buncha SUCKAS~~

below are some quizzes done recently...
kinda weird...
cos it was kinda true~~
=P


pure

What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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ok... i admit i admit..
i am still a virgin~
but wats there to be ashame abt??
i like being pure though~
hehe~
=)



You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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this is kinda true...
i always do unexpecting things to girls i like...
n of course my previous gfs...
im still single and very available...
so if any girls out there hu're interested in a guy like me can juz pop me a msg~
haha~
oh btw, i was voted as CLEO's most eligible bachelor~
hahahah~
:D

im tinking sumthing..
bad things always happens three times...
in the past 2 days, ive had brushes wif the "authorities" twice already...
would there be a third??
im highly anticipating it~
=P
not that i want to haf a brush against the law or any other authorities but it's juz that i wonder wat other things can this hell hole of a life of mine can throw at me...
i've lost that midas touch of mine...
i hope i gain it back soon..
sigh~

nuting..

nuting much to say nor happened to me that i wanna post..
juz random tots...

went to work today..
wif nuting but 4 slices of bread...
these 4 slices gonna last me the entire day..
as my frens would noe, it didnt lasted me...
=)
bought combos frm my own shop~
complete waste of money~~
=P

there was this bunch of monkey hanging outside the shop..
they wanted to get in n kept scratching the glass door..
i stared at them, they stared back..
i gave them the middle finger, expecting them to follow(haha) but they din..
in the end, they licked the door instead~
haha~
it's damn funny~~
looking at them licking the door like a popsicle..
:D

went home n wanted to catch a movie..
double clicked "about schmidt"..
played the movie for 10 minutes n it was stucked..
nvm...
moved on to "two weeks notice"..
couldnt even start...
=\
put in a disc and clicked on "memento"..
everything went well for the first part..
till i clicked on part 2...
it couldnt be watched...
ARGH~~
in the end, transformers saved the day..
caught an episode of the old series...
hey, at least i caught sumthing rite??
=P

not been tinking abt "gers" recently..
on one hand i feel free of any obligations, burdens, troubles..
but on the other, i feel lonliness n emptiness...
shld i go on my hunt?
or shld i wait for the bus to arrive?
"u" tell me...
can the light be shown to me...
pretty pretty pretty plssssss~~~

life....

my life nowadays is kinda like ur heartbeat when ya dead....
get wat i mean??
=)
i haf practically no life nowadays..
no one wanna go out nor hang out...
for goodness sake it's the wkend~~
sigh~

so poor old me spent the wkend working den went home...
f**king pathetic...
i feel so dull..
like some bookworm wif no life~
i wanna hang out~
i wanna do sumthing rather than go home n rot~~
sigh~~

work was bored..
time passed freaking slow today..
dunno y...
nuting much to do..
brought the bk i borrowed frm lioness there..
read the first chapter n gave it up..
it's even worse than my work place itself~~
=P

caught gangs of new york on my comp..
hehe~
it was a gruesome yet intriguing show..
i never left my seat thruout...
i like the racism n gangs storyline..
the way the fought were "caveman" like..
wif clobs and axes...
but u cun blame them, it was set in the 1800s...
but overall i give it 4 popcorns out of 5...
=)

i NEED a gf...
everybody has the company of their respective gfs for the wkend~~
"they" said tat u dun need a gf to haf company, there're frens...
where are they now????
come out come out wherever u are???
:p
juz receive another news frm the nut saying that she dun wanna catch a movie tmr..
tat means another lifeless, dull, pathetic day to go..
it SUCKS~~
sigh~
life sux anyway...